What is Love? I don't give a damn who you are I'm gonna love you. I don't care where you come from I'm gonna love you. I don't care if you make me uncomfortable I'm still gonna love you. I'm gonna love you when you disappoint me when I can't understand you when I think I cannot find who you are. I'm gonna love you when you don't ask want or feel you need it. I'm gonna love you loud love you proud in the quiet times in the dry seasons in those valleys that have no reason. I'm gonna love you and see you and let you do you. Whether you see me I see you and whether you love me I will love you and nothing nothing can change my love, because you did not ask for it, but you deserve it.
Smile Garden Smile because everything will be okay. Smile because you made it today. Smile and store them in your treasure chest and take them out to chase away the pains tomorrow. Smile and watch your brain do a happy dance. Smile forget about your fears and embrace the chance to sing and dance for as long as you can. Smile now and do it really, really prettily for you see this is when you beauty shines. Smile because you made it on the other side. Smile don't forget to make it really wide wide enough to catch the stormy clouds that hang just outside your reach be the vision make your smile the Elysian and watch your smile blossom and create a perfect memory garden.
Too much has been happening it seems lately: too many activities, too many disappointments, too much doubting of myself and too many dark thoughts to keep me down. So I am taking a break. I am going to turn off, walk away from and avoid all those things that make me feel anxious, sad and hopeless.
Yes, this can happen to anyone and there is a breaking point. I think I have reached that breaking point and before I am broken like brittle bones, devoid of the vital nutrients needed to thrive, I have decided to start by taking a break from social media. Since working mostly from home, over a year now, I realize that I have become dependent on social media for companionship, for entertainment, news and a pastime activities that fill points of my day that seem empty – even though the work is there piling up until I cannot ignore it or a deadline is approaching then I stress myself out to get it done. My anxieties, depression and fears were being fed by those seemingly informative medias that made me wonder, now that I am no longer engaged, how I went down those rabbit holes.
Going down the rabbit hole is surprisingly easy. However, when you begin to suffocate down there and you want to get out it is annoyingly hard to find your way back to a place where you feel comfortable once more. But The first part of getting out turns out to be the hardest, and that is actually stepping back. There are so many reasons to stay connected but when the connection feeds the monsters inside that tear you a part piece by piece then we have to dig in and fight to disconnect. The highs and lows can be too much and when you wake up in a good mood and end your day crying because of what you consume on those different platforms then it is necessary to sign off. For the past couple of weeks that has been me to a “T” and now I am mentally and physically tired – not to mention the strain of work, a remedy for disaster.
So, for eight days I will not be on social media unless it is for work. When those eight days end I will decide if I should extend the break and whether I want to make the break more extreme. I now realizing that what is most important to me, is my sanity. Being active on social media does not give that to me. We each have to find what works for us in protecting our sense of well being and mental Health.
Heart's Ease Feel heal see hear and know Tranquility. Welcome peace and goodbye chaos confusion and willful desire. close your eyes and see shades of all colours yellow purple and white. feel the topic breeze as it pulls you deeper into yourself. The deep deep azure that sucks you into its depth like the tantalizing call of a siren. calm, what you desire, but first you must escape your hate. quietude the perfect bed fellow possible only when you release everything pent up and diseased. Grab the elusive Sun - flower and watch it bloom in you. dance on the strength of the ancestors as you pluck for yourself perennial rebirth a lent lily to press between the pages of your life to make it bright.
O.K The beat The pulse Djembe carries the message. Tells me to take wings and fly. the pulse the beat carries healing to reach to teach and to preach. secrets hidden secrets forbidden buried under the lies. The pulse the beat given to me continues the story carried deep down in the bowels of my secret place. I feed on it whoosh I feel it whoosh. faster Each strings tells a story a symphonic legacy. Faster now the urgency... Ok enter.
There are too many of those today But no one seems to care anymore. Those tube take you nowhere except maybe purgatory who knows anymore. Do they tell the story of life that bloomed with youth and vigor? Does it share the scars etched into the feeble flesh? Can it transmit all the challenges you overcame battles won in God's name? Does it say anything about the remains it contains? Can it truly mirror the pain never to be seen again? That bag contains what time has wrought But it can never contain ones soul.
Ordinaryville Here things are quite slow, good? the rush of excitement from doing something great! does not exist here. You will find no perfection only the ordinary. There is no excitement going off at all hours of the day. There is nothing life changing, just life changing day by day. Here there are many cracks many broke things yet - you will find neither cracked nor broken souls just people living. There is no perfect angle of yourself just yourself as you are. You will find survivors without the fairytale ending death is real and the dying necessary. there are less insta happy more gratihappy. No svelte form to hide the horrors that this world can inflict. The living has been transformed by wind, rain, heat and snow - all intrude and we must concede. We have enough control, to survive for as long as our time here allows then we must go move on from this town to find our next home.