What is Love?

What is Love?

I don't give a damn who you are
I'm gonna love you.
I don't care where you come from
I'm gonna love you.
I don't care if you make me uncomfortable
I'm still gonna love you.
I'm gonna love you 
when you disappoint me
when I can't understand you
when I think I cannot find 
who you are.
I'm gonna love you 
when you don't ask
want 
or feel you need it.
I'm gonna love you loud
love you proud
in the quiet times
in the dry seasons
in those valleys that have no reason. 
I'm gonna love you 
and see you
and let you do you.
Whether you see me
I see you
and whether you love me
I will love you
and nothing
nothing can change my love,
because you did not ask for it,
but you deserve it.

Smile Garden

Smile Garden


Smile
because everything 
will be okay.
Smile
because 
you made it today.
Smile
and store them in your treasure chest
and take them out
to chase away the pains tomorrow.
Smile
and watch your brain do a happy dance.
Smile
forget about your fears
and embrace the chance to sing and dance
for as long as you can.
Smile now
and do it really, really prettily 
for you see
this is when you beauty shines.
Smile
because you made it on the other side.
Smile 
don't forget to make it really wide
wide enough to catch the stormy clouds
that hang
just outside your reach
be the vision
make your smile the Elysian
and watch your smile
blossom and create a perfect memory garden.


Taking a Break to Thrive.

Too much has been happening it seems lately: too many activities, too many disappointments, too much doubting of myself and too many dark thoughts to keep me down. So I am taking a break. I am going to turn off, walk away from and avoid all those things that make me feel anxious, sad and hopeless.

Yes, this can happen to anyone and there is a breaking point. I think I have reached that breaking point and before I am broken like brittle bones, devoid of the vital nutrients needed to thrive, I have decided to start by taking a break from social media. Since working mostly from home, over a year now, I realize that I have become dependent on social media for companionship, for entertainment, news and a pastime activities that fill points of my day that seem empty – even though the work is there piling up until I cannot ignore it or a deadline is approaching then I stress myself out to get it done. My anxieties, depression and fears were being fed by those seemingly informative medias that made me wonder, now that I am no longer engaged, how I went down those rabbit holes.

Going down the rabbit hole is surprisingly easy. However, when you begin to suffocate down there and you want to get out it is annoyingly hard to find your way back to a place where you feel comfortable once more. But The first part of getting out turns out to be the hardest, and that is actually stepping back. There are so many reasons to stay connected but when the connection feeds the monsters inside that tear you a part piece by piece then we have to dig in and fight to disconnect. The highs and lows can be too much and when you wake up in a good mood and end your day crying because of what you consume on those different platforms then it is necessary to sign off. For the past couple of weeks that has been me to a “T” and now I am mentally and physically tired – not to mention the strain of work, a remedy for disaster.

So, for eight days I will not be on social media unless it is for work. When those eight days end I will decide if I should extend the break and whether I want to make the break more extreme. I now realizing that what is most important to me, is my sanity. Being active on social media does not give that to me. We each have to find what works for us in protecting our sense of well being and mental Health.

Heart’s Ease

Heart's  Ease

Feel
heal
see
hear
and know Tranquility.
Welcome peace 
and goodbye chaos confusion and willful desire.
close your eyes and see 
shades of all colours
yellow purple and white.
feel the topic breeze as it pulls you deeper into yourself.
The deep deep azure that sucks you into its depth
like the tantalizing call of a siren.
calm,
what you desire,
but first you must escape
your hate.
quietude the perfect bed fellow
possible only when you release everything pent up and diseased.
Grab the elusive Sun - 
flower and watch it bloom in you.
dance on the strength of the ancestors 
as you pluck for yourself
perennial rebirth
a lent lily
to press between the pages
of your life to make it bright.

O.K

O.K

The beat
The pulse
Djembe carries the message.
Tells me to take wings
and fly.
the pulse
the beat
carries healing
to reach
to teach
and to preach.
secrets hidden
secrets forbidden
buried 
under the lies.
The pulse
the beat
given to me
continues the story
carried deep down
in the bowels of 
my secret place.
I feed on it
whoosh
I feel it
whoosh.
faster
Each strings tells a story
a symphonic legacy.
Faster now
the urgency...
Ok
enter.

The Body Bags

There are too many of those today
But no one seems to care anymore.
Those tube take you nowhere
                                          except maybe purgatory
who knows anymore.
Do they tell the story
of life that bloomed with youth and vigor?
Does it share the scars etched into the feeble flesh?
Can it transmit all the challenges you overcame
battles won in God's name?
Does it say anything about the remains it contains?
Can it truly mirror the pain
never to be seen again?
That bag contains what time has wrought
But it can never contain ones soul.

Ordinaryville

Ordinaryville

Here things are quite slow,
good?
the rush of excitement
from doing something great!
does not exist here.
You will find no perfection
only the ordinary.
There is no excitement going off
at all hours of the day.
There is nothing life changing,
just 
life 
changing
day by day.
Here
there are many cracks
many broke things
yet - 
you will find neither cracked nor broken souls
just people living.
There is no perfect angle
of yourself
just yourself
as you are.
You will find survivors
without the fairytale ending
death is real
and the dying necessary.
there are less insta happy
more gratihappy.
No svelte form to hide the horrors
that this world can inflict.
The living has been transformed
by wind, rain, heat and snow -
all intrude 
and we must concede.
We have enough control,
to survive for as long as our time here allows
then we must go
move on from this town
to find our next home.