A stolentruth hidden
sudenly revealed into a knowing
exposed
divulged
admitted
a truth not hidden
the wine of astonishment
a blinding light
on that road of no return
to hunger no more
no more to thirst
only leaves for healing.
I will not be defeated
the sun will not burn
only cool water
bursting through
reclaiming its path
no sorrow to drown in
only a spring well eternal
All praise be
Alpha and Omega
so let it be
it is done
amen
Author: Simone
Loves to tell and hear untold stories about people, places and experiences!
Oikia
Four walls
so simple
looks so strong
fragile
inhabited by memories
a gentle rub
squeeze
pat on the back.
cozy nights
whispered dreams
possibilities shared
locked away like a treasure
held dear.
I remember like yesterday
a warm hug
light pouring from eyes
of love
forgiven always
tursted words
secrets bottled
sent to sail
love lives here
redemption secured
a ceremony for life performed
on the bank of expereince
a knowing told and told
until the new traveler remembers
seared on a willing heart.
Those Days
Those days...
You know those days?
Those days
that stretch into forever and beyond...
those days
when the light is dim
and you have to call on Him
when your shadow
cries for you
groans deep down
in its belly bottom
and sweet release passes untrue
as you knew it would.
But for the grace of God
where would I be?
It is those days
when you cry
"I will fight!"
I will fight
for I will live
and not die!
And as the shadows pass over
you know,
those days will become your yesterdays...
The Struggle of Overcoming Maladaptive Daydreaming
Individuals with maladaptive daydreaming exhibit more symptoms of depression, general anxiety, social anxiety, and dissociation. They are also more likely to have attention deficit hyperactivity disorder (ADHD), obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD) View Source , and depression
Whew and Wow, there are so many labels to contend with in this world. It seems we have become a people of labels. Maladaptive daydreaming is no joke and here I was thinking that fantasising about my best life would be the highlight of my life. Instead the more I delve into this topic the more I realise how dangerous this practice has been to my sense of reality and overall mental health. How to get out of the images and pleasures to be found in your head? Ever been so engrossed in your thoughts that it felt like you were the main feature in your own movie, whether it was a love story or revenge trope? And did you ever end up in the corner of your room or somewhere random crying your eyes out because your thoughts, imaginations and mental conjurings led you there? Well, that is when you know it’s not just daydreaming but a vicious cycle you try to divorce but because life is life you always return to it, for comfort. Wouldn’t life be really grand if you could spend hours escaping? Or are you being trapped? Tangled deeper into a world where no harm can touch you but, you cannot live a real authentic existence. This does not sound great long term and really each time you emerge from one of those long therapeutic escapades you are stuck with the grime of reality. How terrible! Yes, life can be terrible at times but not always and so if you give in to maladaptive daydreaming tendencies you never can fully explore all facets of life. You remain trapped, bound by a need to escape perceived or real dangers that never go away but can be restrained behind the bars of maladaptive daydreaming.
So, we are lost? No. we are not. It is hard. A daily struggle. However, if we really want to free ourselves from the paralysis of Maladaptive daydreaming then it really will take a lot of courage, determination and a village of supporters. It is not easy will never be easy and we will slip up but if we really want to be free of it we need to be disciplined and seek the right support for us whether personal, professional or both. Whatever it takes. So join me as I read a recommendation from a reader of this blog in reading, Quit Daydreaming: How to Wake up and Break free, by J Johnson. In the meantime, I will read and let you know.
Peopleing is Hard!
It’s a landmine out here! Anywhere you turn there a traps waiting to blow up in your face. It does not matter how articulate you sound or good your intentions, if people want to be offended they are gonna be offended no matter what. Imagine trying to live this life that’s hard enough already by being life and then having to evaluate, reconsider, reconfigure every word you say. When you mind was in the laundry mat newly minted and someone comes drags you down into the gutter of their deep dark obsessions. What can you do?
Maybe, I need time to consider what my role has been. Did I have unrealistic expectations or did I contribute to the situations that leave me feeling completely singe? It could be that we take things too seriously and we must stop being hyper-focused on how people are and look inwardly and work on being the best “me” that we can be. It is easy to complain about what everyone is doing or not doing but it’s harder to work not seeing someone else’s bile of trash and not clear out the one we have compiled. We too are a part of the people and their might be those who see us as difficult and hard. So what do we say about this? We may ask for grace but we too need to give it. Especially to that one person, who by their very appearance cause our blood to rage within us – because we know what they are about. Alas, those people cannot be avoided unless we decide to go live on a deserted island.
I remember being young and deciding I wanted to be a nun to avoid people, people hurt and people disappointment. I then decided that being a nun would be boring so maybe living on an island would do the tick! Yet, here I am still among people trying to navigate the slippery landmines that come from arrogance, stubbornness ignorance and perpetual anxiety. So what to do? Maybe it’s time to withdraw, declutter some stuff, throw out the garbage and come again stronger.
Bad Girl
You're not a good girl
you are not nice
today
you made mistakes
today
you're not a good girl.
You did not smile
most days
say hello
with a smile on your face
you got nothing done
you are not good.
you have done
nothing right
for a good while
no good
you are not good.
you told a lie
last night
today -
you caused offense -
disrepected
disappointed
you are not good.
Can I be human?
The Stand…
It rose suddenlyb-
a trembling
rocked the stones
they danced in manic glee.
leaves staggered in confusion
fall guiltlessly.
no one
not one
to be found
no one around.
a pregnant cloud takes up command.
the outporing at hand.
still
no one
not one
around.
the winds whipped
cat-o-nine whistled
skin broken
blood spewing.
no one
not one
around.
they all ran
both wolf
and sheep.
One must die.
Which one will it be?
Batttered
buffeted
strained.
Build up or
scatter.
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