Cup of Suffering

Cup of Suffering

This cup has blood on it
the stench of fear
and dispair
reels hovac on it
terrifying it
into submission.
This cup has seen storms
and strive
that has made dents in it
dents as wide as the ocean 
as deep as the deepest chasm.
This cup has drowned many-
This cup while full
promises abundance
a fee for your suffering.
This cup promises healing,
another day to drink and be alive.
This cup is blessed
by the carrier of the light.

Which Road Will You Take

Which Road Will You Take

There are two roads ahead
and both you dread
because you asked for them
and your prayer was answered.
Now you must decide 
which is best
and which will bring your end.
Nothing gained without a loss
this is what they say.
But if one you choose
know that the other you will lose.
sweet sweat of blood
river red
remind you 
you are mortal.
Now on knees deathly shredded
you must seek relief
from this decision
that trapes you in delirium tremens...


Don't feel sorry for me
when you see me crying
I am healing
Iam being put back together again.
It was hard
to reach this part
where I can release
all the build up from the past.
I am here now
ready to get it out
don't feel sorry
I have to let it out.

I have to release the hurt
the disappointment and the loss.
I have to wash it all out
swim back to myself.
I have to reach this place
where my cup overflows
nd all that holds me back I let go.

So when you see these tears
please have no fear,
just thank God for me
that the end of my nightmare is near.

I Can Only Imagine

I Can Only Imagine

I can only Imagine
all the pain you went through
all the doubts that defeated you
when you needed to fight
that's when you withdrew
and life continued to remind you
the only way to survive
is to be true to you.

I can only imagine
how great the burden was
bent double from wretched sobs
of loss and despair.

I can only imagine
how alone you felt
there were many
but not that one friend
who could give you a hand
no judging just to understand
that you were weak
foolish yes,
but not a freak
or abomination.

I can only imagine 
how you struggled to stay alive
not knowing how to survive
the greatest blow you ever received.
How even now you don't know how
how much grace you can allow
because nothing can ever be the same.

This Season

This Season

Remember this promise...

Month of purpose
month that rings true.

So easy to rebel
so easy to forget
that life is worth
fighting til the end.

Seasons of forgetfulness
a mirage melted
when awake
to the light that pushes away
the dark that game to stay,
to break you down
a little more everyday.

who are no ordinary mortal
stand in the truth
of who you are.

Detach and attatch
rewire your thinking
rise from the water
that promised you doom
and claim your true destiny.

Fade Away

Fade Away

Just like the grass 
that withers under the Sun
terrified by His wrath.
Like the water 
the dries up
humilated by all it had not done.
Just like snow
melting under its own wait
will you too fade away?

When the flowers bloom
not knowing it is its doom
will you too fade a way.
When the wind blows the dust
under its mighty gust
will you too fade away?

Will you stand or take flight
like a bird hounded by its prey.
Will you walk in the light
or cower meanacingly in the night?
Will your beauty perish
under the pummeling of all the ugly in the world?

Will you stay?
Or will you fade away?



Life is a harsh teacher
and you will learn
the grass isn't always greener
and youthful exuberance 
relegated to its urn.

Life doesn't give you extra point
because you meant well.
It will show you, you don't know
what you need to know
by bringing you low.

Life uses time
as the tool 
to showcase the rules, 
that can keep you from dying.

Though you start off  sprinting
Life slows you us down,
so in this lifetime
you can make your imprint.