My One Confession In this dark hour when my life pride would devour, I know I can do nothing no matter what I own no matter my great feats I cannot heal without my Sustainer. I am industrious smart know all - But Father, I can do nothing be nothing, except by your grace.
Mighty One For Karen Mighty-Byfield Mighty one. Powerful and strong. To this land you belong For in no one’s box do you stand. So you must run To find your wings And fly to Destiny. Beautiful one, You were brave all along And now you know That fear taught you your song No more can you be overrun By regret so deep And nightmarish sleep That aimed at your dreams. Because now you know The secret of your hips As they swish and dip To your promised destination.
Our Self-Sabotaging Ways
Self-sabotage is a real thing. To know you are within sight of achieving your goals but self-doubt and your ego trip you up and fear keep you down is the reality for too many among us.
Self-doubt is one of our greatest nemeses. It tells you, you cannot do anything and you cannot achieve anything, that you are limited by your limitations. For whatever reason, we feel compelled to second guess everything we do. In many instances, we may seem to take steps forward but because of self-doubt, we take even more steps backwards that keep us from what we truly want. Debilitating self-doubt means deferred or abandoned dreams which is the tragic reality for too many. Too many who have been buried with their potential, potential, as Myles Munroe said in one of his sermons, robbed the world of great books, great inventions or great ideas that could have led to transforming lives.
The Ego When it is Negative
Now, this is a tough one. Our ego distorts our impression of ourselves. It can make us see ourselves constantly needing to prove something when all we need to do is stay within the bounds of what we can do at a particular time. So, to prove we can in every way we overextend ourselves and our resources and try to be an overachiever when no one asked us to be. As a matter of fact, no one required this of us, except our ego, which we work hard to appease to the detriment of our possible success.
No one has the answers to all we need to know in this life. But we can take the time to reset and reevaluate where we are to avoid self-sabotaging our way through life. We have to return to the simple truth, “once we know better, we must do better”. We know what we must do to be true to who we are to avoid self-sabotage. Let us stop with poor thinking, excuses, self-doubt and a ‘woe are me’, mentality when all we need to do, is do what is right. Nothing is wrong with having a healthy view
of yourself, I believe it is necessary. However, we need to come to terms with the truth that we are not always authentic and we need to be more authentic and more intentional about who we are and how we want to be treated by other.
Fear Can Imprison Us
Then there is fear, the biggest nemesis to self-actualisation. We court fear when we doubt everything we do or say. Fear can come from feeling that at any moment people will realise that we are a fraud and we don’t belong. Such thinking ultimately can lead us to do everything except what we need to do to be on our way, to our business. The vicious cycle that fear can produce will have us seeing a light but remaining in the shadows, frustrated with our inability to move when we need to move. We cannot allow fear to have a stronghold on our minds and in our souls. Once it is there, it will never want to leave because it finds fertile ground to thrive. Let us instead do things anyway, even if you cannot utter a word because if you try to you now you will choke. Move even if it takes all your strength because you have to fight against an insane logic that tells you survival rests in being inactive.
It’s hard but we have to constantly fight against our self-sabotaging ways. For if we do not, how can we truly be the best we can be and experience the joy of living in our truth?
Freedom What does any of us know about freedom? Have you felt high knowing no fear. You walk down the road with steps light like the air. Have you felt the wind sweep you along. Knowing worldly cares do not belong where you are. Freedom is the treasure when you have nothing, owe no one and belong to no doctrine. Freedom is a fat camel that glides through the needle's eye: unbothered unprepared but unencumbered by Life's cares. Freedom is losing it all but knowing finally you have gained your soul by breaking through life's prison walls.
Dis ease Discomfort disagrees, causes dismay and distrust causing dislike. Dis ease disconnects disgracefully, dismisses disintoxication disrespectfully. makes you its slave. Dis ease in the body will make you sorry if with it you tarry too long and make it feel like it belongs.
This Feels Like God
This Feels Like God Each raindrop falling on leaves that gives me so much peace and with the sun shining down on me a light that makes me see the hand of God. A gentle gigle floating in the breeze that gets entagled with the trees reminds me of the innocence of one who believes in the promises of miracles. A gentle flowing stream that carries the wonders of life that washes over me and sets me free to grow, swell and just be free. In a truh that never cease For truth God holds the keys and so because this truth I know I say, "Yes Lord I agree".
A Place of My Own
What if there was a place that was all your own? A place that no one could invade at will, order for you or dictate what you could do. Finding a place of your own is often associated with your living situation. Moving to your own place shows your independence. However, sometimes, even after doing this we still have this burning desire to have a place of our own in this world. This could stem from feeling trapped in one or all areas of our lives. So we go on a quest to find that place.
Finding a place of our own takes many far and wide and along the way, some may get lost and are never heard from again. Some try to begin by looking back. Here, they may find the past a bitter pill to swallow and end up choking on their bile. So what to do but pretend, pretend as if we have the answers, know what to do, and make a mess on top of the mess we forgot or could not bring ourselves to clean up.
So is it that it is so hard to find that place? For many they spend their lives on that quest and end up going in circles, ending up where they began. But what if (hypothetical of course) we could cut through the noise that is this world and find our place? We would have to sift through too many things that do not matter but that now dominate our minds, heart and soul. We would have to let go of so many things to recapture our souls.
Now, this leads all the way back to each of us and guess what? It was always about us. That place we are trying to find required us to properly know ourselves. Trying to find something that was never lost now that is the joke because you knew all along with that that occupying that place was inside of you. You know the answers but they are too scary to contemplate, you have the plan but you seem frozen in that same place. You know you must come to terms with all of yourself and move outside of the world created for you by others who don’t really know or want to know you.
Finding a place of your own is half the work because first, you have to know who you want to be when you find that place.