This Feels Like God Each raindrop falling on leaves that gives me so much peace and with the sun shining down on me a light that makes me see the hand of God. A gentle gigle floating in the breeze that gets entagled with the trees reminds me of the innocence of one who believes in the promises of miracles. A gentle flowing stream that carries the wonders of life that washes over me and sets me free to grow, swell and just be free. In a truh that never cease For truth God holds the keys and so because this truth I know I say, "Yes Lord I agree".
What if there was a place that was all your own? A place that no one could invade at will, order for you or dictate what you could do. Finding a place of your own is often associated with your living situation. Moving to your own place shows your independence. However, sometimes, even after doing this we still have this burning desire to have a place of our own in this world. This could stem from feeling trapped in one or all areas of our lives. So we go on a quest to find that place.
Finding a place of our own takes many far and wide and along the way, some may get lost and are never heard from again. Some try to begin by looking back. Here, they may find the past a bitter pill to swallow and end up choking on their bile. So what to do but pretend, pretend as if we have the answers, know what to do, and make a mess on top of the mess we forgot or could not bring ourselves to clean up.
So is it that it is so hard to find that place? For many they spend their lives on that quest and end up going in circles, ending up where they began. But what if (hypothetical of course) we could cut through the noise that is this world and find our place? We would have to sift through too many things that do not matter but that now dominate our minds, heart and soul. We would have to let go of so many things to recapture our souls.
Now, this leads all the way back to each of us and guess what? It was always about us. That place we are trying to find required us to properly know ourselves. Trying to find something that was never lost now that is the joke because you knew all along with that that occupying that place was inside of you. You know the answers but they are too scary to contemplate, you have the plan but you seem frozen in that same place. You know you must come to terms with all of yourself and move outside of the world created for you by others who don’t really know or want to know you.
Finding a place of your own is half the work because first, you have to know who you want to be when you find that place.
Do Not Waver Those things within you reach; do not waver on them. To waver is a lack of faith teach; yourself to stand your ground. Do not waver because you will falter and all you ask God's gifts will slip through your fingers. Be resolute never leave you to wander in the dark. Let your way be lit by a truth only faith can shine Do not waver in this your time Instead choose your weapon draw your victory line.
I Can Only Imagine I can only Imagine all the pain you went through all the doubts that defeated you when you needed to fight that's when you withdrew and life continued to remind you the only way to survive is to be true to you. I can only imagine how great the burden was bent double from wretched sobs of loss and despair. I can only imagine how alone you felt there were many but not that one friend who could give you a hand no judging just to understand that you were weak foolish yes, but not a freak or abomination. I can only imagine how you struggled to stay alive not knowing how to survive the greatest blow you ever received. How even now you don't know how how much grace you can allow because nothing can ever be the same.
Let Go I heard from God last night - "you need to let go". Let go of the pain the hurts the disappointments that brought you so low. Leave the tears behind that made you blind to the possibilites you had not tried. Stop blaming yourself for being so weak. You were so what does it mean? Does it mean you can never rise that your dream dies because you were once unwise? "You need to move on" from the wasteland in your mind leave all those deadly sins behind grab that wick make your candle and shine.
When One Door Closes When one door closes thank God. That door means no more drama no more tears. No more of those barren years. That closed door means you survived now is your time to thrive. All the lies have been found out and in your mind is no more doubt, it's time to move on. When that door closes you can begin again. You made your mistakes no need to look back take that new escape you can get back on track. Look to the one now opened bid the closed door goodbye that was not the hill on which to die. Do not linger there before you say your amen.
Do you hear me? Hello! I am calling. Do you hear me? Can you see me? Do you know me? Look, I sat here mute, immobile, kneeling under your weight. Did that endear me to you? Look, I let you step all over me let you crush my spirit to dust. Still you don't see me? Do you hear me? I keep calling out to you. Should I sit here in my dispair? Please someone, anyone, make my way clear!