Clown Town

No fun
No sun
Only dark
That mark
Clown town
death sound
Everything spirals
Everything down.

I sit
I stand
looking about
land drought
land grab
maniacs smile
clown town
death sounds
everything spirals
everything down.

Home bound
asylum strapped
horror Nanking
death betrayed
world spins
kill all
burn all
clown town
death sounds
everything spirals
everything down.

dreams die...

Withdrawl.

Three days...
waiting
a lifetime.
Three days...
Fear laughs
bile rising
a loosening,
everything released
wasted.
No sleeping beauty...
this story,
is ending
on this page
to be forgotten...
Famine faints,
on dry land,
Earthquake trembles
threatening
my frame.
Twisted
voices
rabidly infest
possessing
dispossesing me.
Does Paradise await?
Distantly I gaze -
It waves hello
among turquoise crystal clear,
Heavenly,
beckoning the broken...

It’s Okay… You Will Succeed!

I am sure like me, on the eve of the new year, you were staring down the barrel that was 2023 and may have felt a little drag to your feet as you saw the barrel for 2024 being set. You may be dragging your feet because 2023 started promising, reached a high and just did not end the way you expected. You may feel disappointed with some of your choices and are still unsure where you are meant to be. It’s okay. Know that each day you wake up is a victory. If you can get at least one item on your list right, it’s a victory. For this new year be realistic about where you are and how you plan to move forward. Don’t have expectations of yourself you did not meet in 2023 because you were not in a position to be there then; after all, it’s only a day that separates 2023 from 2024. However, despite everything that challenged this possibility, you have succeeded in making it to 2024. If you think about it, you had to claw your way here and maybe drag yourself a few times to cross that finish line but who cares about looking good when survival’s on the line. You are here, be thankful.

Yes, there are things you want to change because you know how bad they are but don’t be anxious. Just accept that it will take time and get worse before it gets better. Know that God will ensure you have the tools, people and inspiration to make each day a success. So, what does success look like? When it’s gonna be different for each of us. So far I have done one thing right out of all the things I have to do since the start of the year and that’s success. It is nothing major, just writing down what I want to accomplish and noting what went well and what did not. I have read a few pages each day of a book I need to finish reading and I spend a few more minutes in prayer. Nothing major but quietly and determinedly I move forward not dwelling too much on what I have not yet accomplished or how I fail each day. I give thanks for the little things that make me happy, like going on a walk, taking some pictures and being free to fail and try again.

For this new year, I hope you take the time to really live in the present and not anxiously anticipate the next day because your current day sucks. I hope you grow in the confidence that there is nothing on this earth truly impossible if you lean into God and allow him to lead the way. I hope you do nothing but trust in his plans and let him have his say. It won’t always be a great year but it will be a year that will build you up to serve God’s kingdom. You will succeed!

The Hikikomori Way

The Hikikomori Way

Is there nothing more
to being alive?

Than to work
and work and work.
Until all our life force
is used up
and then we return to the dust.

Will we die from the shame?

We are not better my friends
than the birds in the sky
at least they fly
before the most die.

there must be more 
to our lives -
I must know this.

But to find out -
the welcoming shadowy doubts - 
I must resist.


Hope

Hope

Hope lingers,
expectantly.
Cleaving valiantly,
to the promise of cleansing rains.
It moves gingerly,
through the landmines
of our minds.
It rides the wave, 
of the sewage
built up over the years.
The Coming is soon,
like the rising sun after the moon
a harvest after the monsoon.
Hope gives birth to redemption,
to change the perception
of the world's dire despair.
Now it shines,
to wakeup the weary somnambulist.
When it falls like Manna,
catch it.
And plant it in your garden.

Children of the Day

Children of the Day

For you are all children of light
children of the day
you cannot be swayed
by what they have to say.
Though they revel in your temporary dismay
you are not delayed
unjustly,
but the evil ways
they choose will lead them astray.
Within you no dark places
no unbroken spaces
to let the darkness in.
So shine in every corner
your light that sustains
the beauty of the day.