The Gratitude Journal I want to say I'm grateful, for this life for my many things for my many friends and for my many family true? But also, a slow Sunday afternoon sunlight glistening on dark and rich skin life breathe flowing in and out eyes to see nose to smell a shelter where I can dwell... And, sadness that brings joy sun to chase away the storms ignorance that births wisdom mistakes and failures that nip me awake and escape the destruction that awaits just around the corner... Most of all, I thank God for the gift of gratitude that rewards with beatitudes.
Category: Encountering New Experiences
And Then 2023…
Well, guess what? It’s 2023. Now what? I suppose it’s time to make a new year’s resolution (but did we do justice to the ones for 2022?) Oh well, let us see what this new year will bring. Would it be a crime to say I have no specific plan, or idea of what I want to do for 2023? There are some vague butterflies called ideas floating around in my head, but I have no clue.
LET’S DO LESSONS LEARNED INSTEAD
Maybe there are lessons from 2022 that we can work on in 2023
But I have learned from 2022 the importance of really taking care of myself, better yet always showing up for myself. I have learned that no matter how much support you have from the people around you, at the end of the day, if you don’t show up for yourself no one else will. No doctor, no friend, parent, no one – except God of course – can show up for you like you can show up for yourself. So I will work harder at showing up more for myself, my dreams and the purpose God has for me.
I have also learned the importance of being intentional, unwavering and willing to face rejection because you no longer want to please. It is a lesson I am still in the process of coming to terms with, it is a hard lesson to learn it seems. However, trying to please means there won’t be anything of you left to please with anyway.
Also, 2022 has taught me that in vital areas of health and well-being I lack discipline and I pray God gives me the chance to learn the lesson so well that I become a model student. So, I will become a disciplined student in the art of being disciplined.
Finally, I have learned that sometimes – maybe most times – I need to be still. I need to stop trying so hard, being so on edge about everything, and trying to control the outcome of everything. I realised, that I oftentimes have zero control over most things and must wait upon the Lord, be patient and allow things to run their natural course. This is hard, but to succeed in these uncertain times faith is so necessary. So, for 2023 I will be working on being still more often in order to get the best results from all my endeavours.
Though I said finally, this is last but not least. Never regret, never be stopped by fear, never give up, love and never hate, laugh off your anger, annoyance and displeasure and live. Live and be thankful to God for each day you can live. Let’s work on these in 2023 and see what happens. All the best my friends, we can do it!
The Fruitless Life
The Fruitless Life Down a dark desolate lane devoid of colour forever grey to a railway where no one comes except the tramps who pick at decaying crumbs. The fruitless life... The streams dried up drought has taken its toll and what once was new is now old and you sit in the cold youth half decayed. The fruitless life... First fruit no more that blossoms sure, for all has been swept away all perish. The fruitless life...
The Sinner
The Sinner I am the bride In whiteI am filled with pride I cannot be touched because God loves me so much I have no sins to hide. So you use religion as a crutch But you I know by your lust, depraved mind which makes you blind to the incremental nature of your soul's decline with each monstrous tide. How dear you! With your limited view tell me about sin. There is no fault within and if so it is not for you to spin my sins back into the light. You both are wrong and rather bold, to think you can either of you speak truth when still you are tainted from within by that corrupted man that loves sin.
Position Yourself
Position Yourself Position Yourself and find the place where you can occupy the space intended for you. Position yourself to accept your calling knowing that in the morning you will know your calling. Position yourself ease into your place and be still in that time that you will find sublime, sublimely yours. Feel, know and hear the whispers of truth denied in the lies of death. Position yourself, stand firm, hold your position, for the battle is not yours...
Betrayal
Betrayal et tu Brutus? Was a wound ever so deep? "Ista quidem vis est!" But the damage was done. Faster than the bullet from a gun love, trust and camaraderie condemned never to rise again. On the tree of misguided self-righteousness a single groan signaled the end no more words uttered. Let us mourn what was that is no more. What could have been now stunted within the sin of betrayal. Now I must shed this skin of innocence spun in deceit. Now to get the salt and pepper not to kill you - but to find something new something that is true...
Vanity!
Vanity! Vanity! All is vanity! The world is a cesspool of vanity. What does it profit a man to gain paper that vanishes? Woe all is a wasteland of vanity. Walk the path set before you look neither left nor right least you stumble lacking insight. the babes are lambs to the slaughter, future sons and daughter lost to vanity. All that is before you vanishes on a breath breathing death of temporance when faced with timely delays. Yea know this, the golden trappings of bliss shimmers like fool's gold.
