Author: Simone

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Get Out The Way!

“I can’t allow you to get in the way of my energy.”

We need to say this especially to ourselves. But before we do we need to develop a positive energy if we don’t have one. It doesn’t matter what we have been like in the past. By being more positive in our thinking I really belief that life would be more pleasant. When the little things don’t matter we can focus on the bigger picture.

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And what is the bigger picture you may ask?

Well there are many things we can’t change and we don’t need to spend time trying to. How we look, where we were born and what we were born with, our prior experiences and so much more. what we can focus on are the things that make us happy. Boldly going after what we enjoy, even if no one else gets it.

We spend too much time second guessing our decision and choices, while many opportunities pass us by. We down play our worth until we have erased what God created and replaced it with a poor substitute.

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I belief that children should never be told to stop dreaming, that they should be like everyone else and accept where they are. This is a dangerous practice that can kill the soul of that child, that can destroy a beautiful flower before it blooms.

However, it is never too late to revitalize yourself , never too late for a restoration of self. the you that you know you are is waiting to emerge, all you have to do is step out of your way. It’s easy to blame someone, anyone: parents, uncle, aunt, boyfriend or girlfriend, the lady down the road, a neighbour, friend, anyone, for why you are still a caterpillar, but you can’t hide from the truth.

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The truth is you may not be giving yourself the chance to grow and reach beyond this very distorted image of yourself because you feel you don’t deserve to be that person. So there it is, your unhappiness and distress could be a manifestation of what’s in your mind and no one’s fault.

Therefore, you not only need to change your attitude but also your energy. Man up or woman up and think about it. Do people want to be around you, do you try to uplift others? Or, do you even get tired of yourself, drained from all the shenanigans you let inside your head and life.

At the end of the day, if we want to be truly happy then we may need to adjust or attitude. We may need to take some time to cultivate a mindset that sees us always hopeful about the future, accepting of what is and a desire to challenge all about the self that has not worked and which never will.

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What Do You Do?

What do you do when you can’t change the world?

It is easy to look at a problem and think you can solve it. However, when you begin to try to do so, you realize that nothing is as easy as it looks. Now, maybe all it takes is digging a little deeper and being and little more focused. But then there are some things that you just have to live with no matter what.

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So what do you do when you can’t chamge the world?

Well you stop trying to do so. You look at yourself and your choices as well as your intention and work from there. We all want to be saviors, to do what it seems no one else can, but we often times cannot. Oftentimes when we feel we have to change something we end up trying to change ourselves. Instead, what we need to do is change how we react to the world and what happens in it.

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We don’t need to change the world because nothing was ever wrong with it. What we each need to change is our reactions to each other and our attitudes. That is the apex of our problems, we try to target the wrong things, to hold the wrong people and things accountable for why things are the way they are. Our happiness, sense of success and inner peace are not contingent on what others thinks and does but on us. I am responsible for me and you for you, no one else.

Saving the world is an enormous burden to carry that leads nowhere; because, while we are busy with delusions of grandeur the world and time waves, says hello and goodbye. Some may see it as noble that you want to shake things up, but sometimes when we try to do this we may be avoiding reality. We avoid the truth of why we want to save the world. Maybe it’s because we really think we can, but, often it is because we cannot save ourselves and by focusing on something else we can live vicariously by saving something we feel needs saving.

So when we take out our armor to slay dragons, we need to check if those dragons are of our creation and a way to deflect from our real issues with ourselves.

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Sad Tales.

There are sad tales that do not need retelling.

We get so caught up in the wonder of them, that we do not know that we have become trapped by them. Many persons may find comfort in these sad tales, even though they hurt because at one time, all we had were those experiences and the hope of better days. We realize that some of those sad tales mean more, when we no longer live them and looking back we can see things about them that were so real. We felt things that were so real. Sometimes, because we yearn for real things we relive those sad tales and sometimes they bring us comfort.

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They become nostalgic mementos, like pressed flowers between pages that we have an urge to take out and look at from time to time. However, sometimes we get carried away with remembering and forget that we have to keep on living. We forget that those tales are a part of the fabric of our lives that we do not need to keep tucked tightly under our hearts. The tale of all our injuries and an account of every slight ever committed, can do us more harm than the real act, if we choose to stay in it.

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You see, it is often those stories of near death experiences, or of almost losing it all that inspire us to grow and reach further than we ever had, or thought we could. But, there also comes a time when we must reach for new tales, of happiness and laughter, of solitude and peace. There is always room not just for the sad tales, but also for those that burn a fire within us, that can never be extinguished.

Plant

I Knew You.

 Your eyes saw my unformed body; all my days were written in Your book and ordained for me before one of them came to be.  Psl 139:16

You i knew 
before my memory got so poor.
Old age cannot explain why I cannot see you.
I think
but my thoughts are all jumbled:
don'tiknowtheyouyouareandtheyouyouaresupposetobe?
A string of thoughts.
No rhyme or reason.
An idea half formed,
destroyed before it could be born.
Or was it killed,
A dream not born of a woman
or man - 
We must always be 
'politically correct"
right?
I know of you,
or so I would like to believe.
But do I know you
really 
as you should have been?
In setting me a part by my appointment did it work?
If it is your Word that comes
why does it not enter,
why is it locked out,
strangled under the weight of not knowing.
Like a bolom maybe I had lost
my salvation.
How to get it back but to retrace my steps and hope I have my way
back.
A silent cry is what I hear and turn to.
A cry that has no beginning 
no ending
no words
no sound.
So loud that it cannot be drowned
Cannot be silenced by the impracticality of your practicality. 

If I awaken from my slumber
will I like that piteous monster,
cry to dream again?
one wonders, if a simple awakening is enough.

Destiny?

Destiny
what does it even mean?
Is it being caught in that in between?
A place that tells you have arrive 
when you had not taken the bus to get there?
I am destined to be great?
Who says?
If i reach high enough and hold on long enough
it will find me?
So I must wait
or I should go?
Tell how do I find it?
Can I find it?
Will it wait for me?
Will it wait until I have made many messes 
then clean up
or try to?
DO I have to find the answers first?
Do i have to unlock secrets I don't know
about?

Can you Please answer me.

How Long, far, deep and wide?
How much of me do I need to cut
piece by piece?
If you don't have the answers, who does?
Who can tell me what is real?
Are my dreams real and my life a nightmare
made to look normal?
Have been in a haunted house all this time!
Do I need to gather weapons to myself
to save myself
from myself?

Where do I turn
what will I do 
tied up by my own tongue?
Can i voice my displeasure when
I am trapped behind these bars 
that chew and cut and demolish
everything?

Destiny
I am waiting.
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What If…

What if you just take the leap and go for what you wanted?

What’s the worse thing that could happen?

Is what if better than If only?

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Being able to look ahead and operate from the what if may be a lot more promising than looking back at what was and regrettably sigh, if only. Sometimes we think we have made the only logical decision there is to make in a given situation. However, when we honestly cross-examine ourselves we admit that that logical decision was made from an illogical fear.

There are many of us who only recognize this after the fact, when there is nothing else to do but learn and do better. Some, hold stubbornly to the mistake and refuse to admit the naturalness in making decisions out of fear that we end up regretting. You see, when we think of what ifs, we are thinking of all the possible problems- as if life does not always have problems that we have to deal with. We may think it more sobering to think up all the possible obstacle before they happen so we maybe prepared.

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However, we will never be prepared from the real thing, because at the heart of all our logical reasoning is a heart that desperately wants things to work out the way we want it to work out. We may say it doesn’t matter, until it does. Regret is terrible and can be debilitating when you see the possibility of what could have been if only we fought against your fear of what you do not know.

Staying on the shore and watching all the swimmers is not how you learn to swim. Therefore, staying safely indoors and watching everyone else make various attempts and doing stuff, is not how life was meant to be lived. Many persons love the internet because they can live vicariously through someone else. many sit and watch and wish they could be that person, go where they have been and do what they have done. How profound it would be for each of us to realize that what we get is the remains from their yesterday. That while we are there saying some day we will do the same. They have already moved on to the next thing and if we try to following we will get lost in the shuffle to the next thing. While we are there trying to catch up to a lifestyle two days old.

It’s an open field of what can be.

So what if we really take that leap of faith.

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That Wall.

Child it’s time to break the shell

Life’s gonna hurt but it’s meant to be felt

You cannot touch the sky from inside yourself

You cannot fly until you break the shell

India. Arie, Break the Shell

India. Arie, in speaking about her song, Break the Shell, indicates a time when she was “fighting to grow”, a process she found to be “dehumanizing”.

Many of us have walls that we need to scale but we find it scary to make that first move. We find it difficult to make a plan to get over those walls, much less to tackle it. Instead, what happens is that we spend too much time dreaming instead of planning an escape. Before we know it, it has gotten impossible to make a move towards them.

But the people who live there are strong, and the cities have walls and are very large. We felt as small as grasshoppers, and that’s how we must have looked to them.

Numbers 13: 28, 33

We become like the men who Moses sent to spy in Canaan; we allow ourselves to become so small that we make the wall more powerful than it ever had a right to be. We also make ourselves too small and too insignificant in the eyes of those who guard those walls and keep us trapped within.We begin to see ourselves through the eyes of others and belief that their view of us is the only image that matters. We begin to wonder if we can grow tall enough and strong enough to conquer them and then we begin to lie to ourselves, rather than test our faith, by putting our trust in the will of the Creator for us.

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That wall we build to keep everything out, the good and the bad. When we think it’s safer to keep in and keep everything out, even the things we are meant to keep. That wall we nurture, ignoring everyone that is on our team, only we did not know, because we built it to high to really see and know and grow. The wall we used to judge too harshly, can only be destroyed when we stop and accept people for who they are and not how we feel about them.

That wall can cause us to stop stretching to avoid the pain that comes with too much movement, and stop trying to escape the hurt that jumping and missing brings. So we forget that that wall was never that great in the first place, and never that strong to begin with, until we gave it the power to be so.

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