Who Told You?

WHo Told You?

Who told you
to accept things they way they are?
Who told you to conform?
Who tricked you
told you
that is the only way
to follow the crowd.
WHo told you
you should never suffer
that trials would not appear?
Who told you to turn away
from who you truly are
to follow what they say?
Who told you 
you were weak
that all your life you would expereince defeat?
Who told you lies
so that you belief
and the truth you cannot see?

Stop being deceived.

Reputation

Reputation

There goes the lie
on spindly legs.
It crawls
about 
trying to find a route
out of the doubts
that it may not be who it seems.

The Lie:
We must protect Reputation - 
at all cost:
kill if you must
steal, fight and cuss.
But don't let out
the truth of what it is...

Constructed to please the crowd
now a monster too proud
to be cowed by humilty.
Knees stiffened
back straight
eyes fixed on success' frivolities.
Now it goes through the door 
Head held high
headed for the gate
that leads straight to hades.

Humility stand just a way off,
waiting for those who seek,
waiting for those who are meek.

Pure Faith

Pure Faith

I stand on a mountain
covered compeltely.
Unable to see
I stand still
waiting
watching,
for God's degree.
I don't know what is ahead
but I know what I left behind:
a tratious mob
shouting for my decline,
masked transient beings
who seem true and real
until you check your progress
and realise
they were always a part of your ordeals.
So here I have come
to see what I will become
when I step off the edge,
 die to fear
and live in pure faith.

Where is Your Armor?

Where is Your Armor?

You are a valiant soldier.
You were chosen
to complete this mission
and you will
with God's great vision.
What you need now-
is your Armor.
You need the belt of truth,
to brace against stealthy lies.
You need the breatplate of righteousness,
to live honorably
and ward off sins.
You need the gospel of peace,
to speak truth against those who deceive.
You need the shield of faith,
against pesky doubts that try to inflame
fear, hate and anxiety.
You need the helmet of salvation,
to protect your mind
so on your soul sin will not dine.
You need the sword of the spirit,
God's words that slices through
even the thickest fog of gloom and doom.
Now you are equipped
with all you need.
With a triumphant heart
you can now proceed.

Grace Untold

Grace Untold

I was trapped in hell
a decade now,
did you not know?
There, the demented fire licked 
at chasm wounds 
tore at softened bones
melting like the liquid
lava river I passed by.

As I clawed my way out
across cracked desert floors,
I lost a few things
but I got back my soul.

From that treacherous escape
to the light
I had to wrestle,
and defeated the demons
of the night.

On shredded legs I ran
like a lightning bolt
thanking God.

One day perhaps,
when I have gotten old
I will find the words to write
of victory won
and grace untold.

The Gratitude Journal

The Gratitude Journal

I want to say I'm grateful,
for this life
for my many things
for my many friends
and for my many family
true?

But also,
a slow Sunday afternoon
sunlight glistening 
on dark and rich skin
life breathe
flowing 
in
and out
eyes to see
nose to smell
a shelter where I can dwell...

And,
sadness that brings joy
sun to chase away the storms
ignorance that births wisdom
mistakes and failures that nip me awake
and escape
 the destruction that awaits
just around the corner...

Most of all,
I thank God
for the gift of gratitude
that rewards with beatitudes.


And Then 2023…

Well, guess what? It’s 2023. Now what? I suppose it’s time to make a new year’s resolution (but did we do justice to the ones for 2022?) Oh well, let us see what this new year will bring. Would it be a crime to say I have no specific plan, or idea of what I want to do for 2023? There are some vague butterflies called ideas floating around in my head, but I have no clue.

LET’S DO LESSONS LEARNED INSTEAD

Maybe there are lessons from 2022 that we can work on in 2023

But I have learned from 2022 the importance of really taking care of myself, better yet always showing up for myself. I have learned that no matter how much support you have from the people around you, at the end of the day, if you don’t show up for yourself no one else will. No doctor, no friend, parent, no one – except God of course – can show up for you like you can show up for yourself. So I will work harder at showing up more for myself, my dreams and the purpose God has for me.

I have also learned the importance of being intentional, unwavering and willing to face rejection because you no longer want to please. It is a lesson I am still in the process of coming to terms with, it is a hard lesson to learn it seems. However, trying to please means there won’t be anything of you left to please with anyway.

Also, 2022 has taught me that in vital areas of health and well-being I lack discipline and I pray God gives me the chance to learn the lesson so well that I become a model student. So, I will become a disciplined student in the art of being disciplined.

Finally, I have learned that sometimes – maybe most times – I need to be still. I need to stop trying so hard, being so on edge about everything, and trying to control the outcome of everything. I realised, that I oftentimes have zero control over most things and must wait upon the Lord, be patient and allow things to run their natural course. This is hard, but to succeed in these uncertain times faith is so necessary. So, for 2023 I will be working on being still more often in order to get the best results from all my endeavours.

Though I said finally, this is last but not least. Never regret, never be stopped by fear, never give up, love and never hate, laugh off your anger, annoyance and displeasure and live. Live and be thankful to God for each day you can live. Let’s work on these in 2023 and see what happens. All the best my friends, we can do it!