Category: Encountering New Experiences

You Like. I Love

You Like. I Love

You like it
I love it
Who am I to judge.
I'm not God
I don't know
how to measure
right or wrong.
Yes 
I know what I like
but not for you,
so do what you have to do.
All those who judge,
judge themselves,
they have the closet
and all their garbage in it.
But I wont judge,
cause I have my own.

me against Me. Always

Does it always seem you have to be guarding against yourself. Is your greatest enemy you? In a lot of ways, we can be our harshest critic and our greatest liability. I am not here to sprout any words of wisdom, not today at least but to ask some really important questions for self-reflection.

Question 1: Who taught us that we need to be perfect? At what stage in life did we accept that our value lies in successfully jumping the hurdles life places before us? I have come to recognise in myself a need for perfection that has time and again led to some very imperfect results. it seems the more we strive for perfection the worse we perform. However, recognising this very poor tendency to aim for perfection does not mean it is easy to overcome. When I think I have mastered the art of accepting my flaws I am reminded that indeed I have not!

Question 2: Why are we obsessed with the past time of comparing ourselves with others? We know that comparison is the thief of joy, but we persist in doing so. There is no way that I can be anyone other than myself and yet we may find ourselves being drawn into this unwanted sport of comparisons.

Question 3: Why do we try to please others? I have been guilty of trying to fit into the mould someone created form. Do you know what happens when you squeeze into a mould not designed for you? If you are successful in your squeezing it disfigured you. You morph into a contradictory shape of the original that will never match it, to even come close to it.

Question 4: Why do we hold on to things that are destroying us? This is one of the saddest and scariest things we do. We know we should let go, we tell ourselves we will and yet actually doing so is so painfully hard. Why? I think fear has a lot to do with it.

Question 5: Why do we allow fear to control us? I think life would be so much better if we became fearless. Not a little more fearless, because too many persons have no concept of what it is to be fearless. There are too many of us who allow fear to control every decision, every action and every word we utter. We have to find and way to do things, say things and be in spite of those naggingly annoying fear waiting to trip us up.

There is no easy answer to overcoming self-sabotage. It’s a daily struggle we have to fight with and win. Keep fighting.

While Your Heart Breaks

While Your Heart Breaks

While your heart breaks
I must take
this shovel
and keep digging.
While that tear drops
I must sit atop
my mound of clay
chip away at the decay of immorality
left by those who blunder in the name of crusades.
While you are happy
that your world is not so unhappy
I will carve my joy from dirt.
While you pray
for us to find our way
we will dig a path way trench.
While you feel blessed
to come from the west
I dig my feet
on the mountain side
to find my peace
when I face that test.
While you feel priviledged
know that I will
still survive.

It Will be Worth It

It Will Be Worth It

That pool 
of sweat and grime
that you are swimming in,
it won't drown you,
it will give you life.

That rush of blood, marrow and spleen
that attacks you
will not silence you
they are fuel to propel you.

You think you are defeated
and you wish you had retreated
back into the hole to lick your wounds
and console yourself.

But if you just stay awhile,
face this trial
head first
to quench the thrist 
of those dreams
waiting to be seen.
Just wait
it will be worth it
after all when you are redeemed.

Love Bites

Love Bites

A mean.
I wasn't ready
yet.
But that did not matter
to you.
It's true what they say - 
well I am not sure what they say -
but your love bites 
left my grasping through blue veins.
I thought lots of pleasure
mixed with a little pain
would be my gain.
But no one said 
you would aim for the vein
and drain
all of me again and again.
I know your're excited
to be finally released
but why tear piece by piece?

Next time, 
I'll be ready
next time I will gain
a pound of your flesh
So you are contained
until you are trained.

Sister, are you okay?

Sister, are you okay?

Sister, are you okay?
We are praying for you,
we did not see you
with your husband today
what happened?
Did he cheat on you?
Or did you leave willingly?
God knows all,
better days to come.

Sister, are you okay?
Today you did not look
so good.
We are use to everything in place
but today there was a strand or two
astray.
This is your testing,
we all must face.

Sister, are you okay?
We just mean well,
let us come to your home
to make sure everything - 
no we are just helping!
Gettng in your business
just a necessary evil.

Sister?
Sister?
Wait, she hang up!