My One Confession

My One Confession

In this dark hour
when my life
pride would devour,
I know
I can do nothing
no matter what I own
no matter my great feats
I cannot heal
without my Sustainer.
I am industrious
smart
know all - 
But Father,
I can do nothing
be nothing,
except by your grace.

Accept

Accept

Accept you know
but do not know.

For when we don't know
good things will come.

When we look around the corner too soon
We may fall into a trap too deep.

There is no esculator up these mountains
only the wind to carry us.

Accept that you can't know
and good things will follow.

I Stand Corrected

I Stand Corrected

I stand corrected,
for now I truly see,
the breach I have committed
in not seeing your humanity.
I am better than the Pharisee - 
is this not true?

I stand corrected, 
for my shaky legacy
of misguided hurt
that led me to bury you in the dirt
when I cast the first stone
instead of bathing you in the light.

I stand corrected for my part
in not seeing the treasure you are,
in my chest filled with duplicitous art.

June Plum

June Plum

Seductively sweet -
though it can be a savoury delight-
it reaches for your insides
promising to be more than a treat.
It delights the sense 
quenches the urges,
buried so long and so deep.
it's golden light
promises perpetual sunshine that excites,
but only if
you take that first bite
and not even a drop 
should fall on your chin.
But how can something so small
brought by a Bligh
who brought so much strive
taste so right?
Yet here it is
slowly awakening the senses
delightfully taking control...

Keeping it Real

Keeping It Real

I have been designed many times:
who I am
who I should be 
who I was meant to be.
But none asked  
what I am to me
what I was meant to be
or what I see in me.

They count the years
and fuel my fears
with their unasked for expectations.
No one seems willing
for me to be me -
They will say they do-

      There is the lie.

They can't handle the truth of me.
And so they see what they want to see
the maddening fever of their mirage.
So
they polish up and shine
the me they designed
and leave me to languish,
wasted 
dusty
on the shelf.
There I sit
after having been split
by good intentions
and kind words,
struggling to reassemble myself
while you nurture a leprechaun elf.

I Try and Compose Myself

I Try and Compose Myself

I stay still
and pray for the will
to keep myself together.
The more I try
to shut my eyes
A little piece of me
falls away 
like the burnish autumn leaves.
Silently too like an old banshee
I scream from the fright
of what this could mean.
Layer after layer melted in a scurry
while I sat nervously
fretting and sweating with worry - 
what could this mean?

As each layer continues to fall away - 
to de-compose
and expose -
What I see,
is a deep down rawness
of a tale no one knows - 
not even me.

Reputation

Reputation

There goes the lie
on spindly legs.
It crawls
about 
trying to find a route
out of the doubts
that it may not be who it seems.

The Lie:
We must protect Reputation - 
at all cost:
kill if you must
steal, fight and cuss.
But don't let out
the truth of what it is...

Constructed to please the crowd
now a monster too proud
to be cowed by humilty.
Knees stiffened
back straight
eyes fixed on success' frivolities.
Now it goes through the door 
Head held high
headed for the gate
that leads straight to hades.

Humility stand just a way off,
waiting for those who seek,
waiting for those who are meek.