Abort!

Abort


The bud that threatens to bloom is no more
From the efforts of foes have come its foeticide
no more.
"Abort!" they say
save your life.
Do not go down with the ship!

In terror it cries at the fear
of not seeing the light
of not inhaling the toxic fumes
that slowly kills and maims.

The fault is too wide 
to cross or hide
the unpardonable sin.
So we heap sin on sin to over us in
so no one can see we sinned. 

A foolish thought
born of a desperate heart
to right a wrong 
by doing more wrong.

I turned to Time
to ask Him to be kind
But a piece of my soul
He said was, "mine".

I must decide whether to walk the blank
or swim in my own filth.
to take a leap
accept defeat
and abort abort abort!

It’s Your Time

It's Your Time

Don't wait
Time won't allow you to stop
and look around.
wait for you to get ready.
Now is all you have.
Don't wait
to be led by those better
than yourself.
There is no one who can give you the promises
no Moses to take you to the edge
of the Promise Land.
Don't wait
for the perfect thing
yet unnamed
unseen
unreal.
Touch what is there until
it turns from water into wine,
bread from stone.

Don't stop,
to smell those roses 
they are rotting
grab them from the stem in full bloom
take them with you - 
then crush the to keep them
alive forever like a memory that never dies.
Stretch those once useless limbs
until they grab and squeeze
the juice you need to sustain you.
Do 
be fearless and true, 
in all that you do,
to slay your Goliaths.

Death Card

Death Card

Today I looked at a customized shell
A shell of what was
I cried
I mourned
and wept for the life
once contained in that shell.
I told myself - 
"it was okay".
He has gone to a better place.
My heart bleed
blood red, green and gold
the ugliest tears 
you cannot imagine.
It had come face to face
with its mortality.
So fragile
a light had been easily snuffed.
He was poor and so he died
cursed by inequity.
Born to struggle 
he died flying.
A fight from the womb like a warrior 

I saw death sitting stiffly
presiding over its celebration.
Its gray countenance a reminder of the road
 we all must travel.
And I knew there must be 
more.
Another story waiting to be told- 
on the other side?

The Body Bags

There are too many of those today
But no one seems to care anymore.
Those tube take you nowhere
                                          except maybe purgatory
who knows anymore.
Do they tell the story
of life that bloomed with youth and vigor?
Does it share the scars etched into the feeble flesh?
Can it transmit all the challenges you overcame
battles won in God's name?
Does it say anything about the remains it contains?
Can it truly mirror the pain
never to be seen again?
That bag contains what time has wrought
But it can never contain ones soul.

Apologia

Apologia

If I had concentrated
taken the blame more, humbled myself more
maybe, just maybe if I had waited
in my life there would not be so much gore.
I can only sit and ponder
as each soul passes by my humble abode
quite slyly they look with wonder
born of a horror when one kisses a toad.

But I cannot remain here consumed by this monster
I must take the reigns eke out a future
break free from this guilt
grab my tools so I can rebuild
fashion something new
from the ashes of my dreams.

Jealousy

Jealousy

I feel rage. 
I feel fear.
I feel humiliated!
Like a tiger I will tear you apart.
How could you?
Why did you?
Make me feel this way.
All twisted, bent out of shape.
Inflamed in my rage of inferiority
I have been contained
to burn slowly
until nothing remains.
Let me have this
so I can destroy you and it.
Let me tear off your image 
and use it as my mask.
Let me wrap these tentacles around you
bring you to your knees
for I must feed
on your soul
attack you from within.

You look at me and I know
you cannot be trusted.
Nothing said nothing done
just a thought
just so
I do not know - 
but it must be so?
I must protect and keep
What is mine to keep.
I must stop you from knocking me off my feet
taking my shine.
I must keep you in line!

So I claw and squeeze
until the blood overflows.
For to do my business I must be heart -
less.
Like a living nightmare
I remain close at heart.

And I will rage…

And I will Rage...

...against bigots on their stage
whose smiles poison and words inflame
hate.
...against the kindness of thieves
who see the suffering grieve as weak and take siege.
...against the promises of peace
made by those who hold the gun
who demand  praise for their  reign of death and terror.
...against the powerful who spiral out of control
                                                                    too vast to contain
who spit out skulls as they feast on our pain.

For though my power is made impotent
the will to fight does not wane.
my rage is all I have left so I will nurture and bottle it.
to get back my humanity to counter the pain.
I will master and wield it
to turn the tide and carry the day.