Why Apologise

Why Apologise

You said it already
You did it already
Why apologise?
Than glint in your eyes 
cannot lie
I know you will do it again.
I guess I must
trust that you
will mean it this time.
But could it be a lie
this time again
am I insane
to trust you again and again?
Oh why apologise!
When I was ready to cut ties
and ride off into the sunset
away from sure demise.

While Your Heart Breaks

While Your Heart Breaks

While your heart breaks
I must take
this shovel
and keep digging.
While that tear drops
I must sit atop
my mound of clay
chip away at the decay of immorality
left by those who blunder in the name of crusades.
While you are happy
that your world is not so unhappy
I will carve my joy from dirt.
While you pray
for us to find our way
we will dig a path way trench.
While you feel blessed
to come from the west
I dig my feet
on the mountain side
to find my peace
when I face that test.
While you feel priviledged
know that I will
still survive.

Slow Burn

Slow Burn

Not to fast
or you'll be tired to quick
not too slow
or the motion makes you sick.
If your want reality
you must go slow
If you want to keep your vitality
there is no other way to go
but slow.
half baked 
look all fake
because you never did what it takes
to get the right motion
with a slow burn.
Don't be tempted
and get misrepresented
by going to fast
only to ged passed
along like a rag doll
easy to fall
for this trick and that.
Take it slow
go slow
and learn
how to slow burn.

Start the Week Right

It is the start of the third week in a new month, in a new year. Have you been able to stick to your plans? Are you satisfied with where you are now? Whether or not you are happy where you are now this is another week to start fresh, with a clean slate. Here are five quotes that I am sharing with you to get you through this week. Remember Nothing is guaranteed but anything is possible! tackle the week with all the positivity you can muster!

Every day I move forward on a track of healing and self-improvement

Instead of worrying about what you cannot control, shift your energy to What you can create

Don’t start your day with the broken pieces of yesterday. Everyday is a fresh start. Each day is a new beginning. Every morning we wake up is the first day of our new life.

Every day may not be good but there is something good in every day.

Start by doing what is necessary then do what’s possible; and suddenly you are doing the impossible.

It’s A Mess Out Here!

So, you thought once you had a plan, once you know your purpose, everything would be alright. I’m, sure you have been praying, hoping and wishing upon a star that you would know the direction you should be headed in. Now you know and now you are but it’s still hard! Well, you are still making silly mistakes and stepping on too many toes and it all gets frustrating. However, the mess may be what you need right now and a little heads up, nothing will be perfect.

There will be days when everything is going right, your step is light and you feel as if you are invincible. At such a time nothing is impossible and your marvel at your stamina and resilience. There is nary a dark cloud lurking nearby, the horizon is clear and you know you will make it. Those days are golden, enjoy them but be prepared for the turbulence of your off days. On those days all you want to do is sit somewhere and cry, sometimes you don’t know why and sometimes you do. You remember all the hurt that you thought you swept away, all the disappointments and wonder if they all will come back again. On those days you doubt yourself, you have no answers and you feel the tentacles of cold failure squeezing the life out of your progress.

On those days if you cry that is okay, if your thoughts are dark it’s also okay. However, you cannot remain there too long because those feelings and those thoughts can paralyse and worse drown you. Never give in, fight dirty if you must. Use every weapon at your disposal – and you have some, just remember them and look for them.

Achieving anything worth having will be messy. We need to remember this and smile and the storms because they will pass in time.

Keeping Them at Bay

Keeping Them at Bay


I see their ghostly figures whirling at the gate
cunningly they await,
on their hook is the bait
of wallowing in deep despair. 

They taunt me continously
and I am drawn to them unwillingly
They shroud themselves in the imtimacy
of knowing my deepest
so they offer their blunt honesty
of doom.

But I must not let them in,
I must fortify the gate,
with love and hope and peace
I must withstand this siege
Their lies I must not believe.
I pull on all I have within
so that I can win this time.

It must be in God's great design