i said i love you i said i love you but not how strong right now i love you but not all the day long. must i lie pretend to be shy and give you a teddy for you to wear on your sleeves? i said i love you but not that much to give up and flush all of my dreams as small as they seem to follow your highlight reel. I said I love you take it or leave to make room then for someone who believes.
Tag: seeing things differently
Sister, are you okay?
Sister, are you okay? Sister, are you okay? We are praying for you, we did not see you with your husband today what happened? Did he cheat on you? Or did you leave willingly? God knows all, better days to come. Sister, are you okay? Today you did not look so good. We are use to everything in place but today there was a strand or two astray. This is your testing, we all must face. Sister, are you okay? We just mean well, let us come to your home to make sure everything - no we are just helping! Gettng in your business just a necessary evil. Sister? Sister? Wait, she hang up!
What Not to Say
What Not to Say It's funnny how you go intending to show you much you care. You trample the fragile grass of hope, left in reserve for a time when hope is scarce. "Sorry for your loss" is tossed like a sauce that stings an empty soul. A tear forced here, cracked voice there that offers no warmth to those now left in the cold. "So how did he die?" A dagger in the heart, a fresh wound bleeds with each uttered breath. Maybe next time you will get the report that pays for the salt you carried for treating the wounds. "I will talk to you then." A promisory note that brings us to the end of a most difficult talk.
Did It Leave Me?
Did It Leave Me? Blue black breath I stand on this desserted trek waiting Wondering, will it come? Has it gone? Will I have another chance if it has? Aimeless back and forth I go. Only the black shadows friend or foe? I do not know. I stand a pawn of Time lacking vision my only crime. Have I already been condemned? Frozen. will I find a friend to help me back on track? I stand rooted, waiting. Can you tell me, if it is gone that way will it come back?
The Monster Inside
The Monster Inside It lurks at the very edge waiting breathing heavily hoping that one bad choice will be made; avalanche. Then it leaps through the air teeth bare, a vicious monster aiming for the jugular.
Greed
Greed Our downfall is greed sprinkled with the need to be seen as prosperous. We consume our way into the grave making the mistake that having more means you're a success, oh no, you are a slave on the product line of progress.
Sh*t Don’t Go Away…
“Yes! I had finally gotten rid of it. It would no longer rule my life. Maybe I can take a break from being so vigilant and do the things I’ve always wanted to do.”
I made the mistake to think I could use a bandaid to cover a gash. I had done what I set out to do really I had fixed the problem, permanently.
But that was not the case, because some problems are bigger than we are and we have to seek help. But I, I had solved my own problems and now things would be smooth from this point forward. So without knowing that my nemesis was lurking, I started to pat myself on the shoulder, maybe I got a little cocky and started doing something that got me in trouble in the first place. But never mind, those things can be handled or at least I know I can handle those things.
So naturally, I went ahead and did whatever I felt like doing, even if it wasn’t right for me. After all, I knew when to pull back and get myself in line. But, I did not. Better yet I could not pull, not after I started and certainly not when I wanted to stop. But I was still sure I would never get back from where I was coming from.
However, I underestimated its tenacity and willingness to wait, a trait I have yet to fully master. So it waited for its chance while acting like a fool, doing everything but being vigilant. As I became confused by my desire and neglect it slowly crept back to the top. It crept back on top of me, overwhelmed me and locked me under its spell of pain and dread. Now, I am playing catch up and I can’t allow it to get too ahead of me, all is not lost yet. I have to take some drastic steps to crawl out of the dark hole it flung me in, dust off myself, build up my strength and attack it this time at its roots. I have no other choice left…
