Slow and Steady…

Slow and steady wins the race. This is a proverb that we have forgotten and if not forgotten, have chosen to reject. We walk up rushing and go to sleep rushing, with no in between. Instead of running a sprint maybe what we need to do is to settle into the long distance race. It can be disconcerting to see everyone pass you on the way up, but there is the cautionary tale that many of those persons quickly pass us down, some having jumped off the edge.

So let’s take it slow. When you feel anxious, take a seat breathe and wait. Wait for your racing heart to settle down, the fear in your gut to disappear and for your vision to clear, so you can truly see what is in front of you. There have been many times in the urgency of getting things done, that we make things worse than they needed to be. Slow and steady will get you to the finish line, where nervous energy will not.

When you feel like furling your fist because you feel that you are being left behind remember that when the hare left the hedgehog behind he did declare his defeat. Instead he kept at it, step by step, never giving up even when the sun beat down and his vision was blinded by his sweat – he kept going. But what is important is to do so step by step, not to leap for imaginary bridges and swing on fragile could. With both feet firmly on the ground, we can calmly allow our seeds to take root, become plant that eventually bear fruit.

Moment by Moment…

This year I will be intentional about not being focused on the big picture, but noting each brush stroke. The ripples and dimensions of colors that enter my world will get their own special attention. I know it is important to many to have an iron clad plan for the year so that they can achieve something special. However, I want to step back out of the crazy push to be normal and get on a path to being sane. So I will take time to looking closely at those little idiosyncrasies that lead me to make the same mistakes with what I put into my body, being quick to acknowledge the little hurdles I have to overcome and slow to finding quick fixes. Instead I will acknowledge my faults and work through finding their weaknesses.

You first have to be honest with yourself. Stop chasing dreams that make no sense and stop nurturing lies that trap you in a world of constant disappointment. Take the time to write all that you hope to achieve, but in increments, achievable timeframes that counter grandiose disillusionment. Take time to learn about yourself and for the sake of your sanity stop living in denial. Trust yourself to be tough enough to do the right thing, even if you fail the first, second, third and so forth and so on. Take each day moment by moment. Stop and tend to your yard before you start looking over the fence. Stop and check in with yourself from time to time. Am I doing okay? DO I need to shut down my social media, or shut out thoughts that may harm my mental well-being? Those are important questions that require your attention.

It is never too late to slow things down so that you can be more productive. Despite all the chaos and uncertainty around, we do not have to go down in flames. Be present at all time and to do this you we have to find time to be still, to let things happen organically without trying to control the outcome all the time – we are not omniscient and we will never be. Instead, all we need to do is to take the time to find out what works within the frame of our imperfections. No need to plan to totally change, but to improve on the good and slowly let go of those bad things that have been holding us back. Take the time to breathe in and out slowly, moment by moment

O.K

O.K

The beat
The pulse
Djembe carries the message.
Tells me to take wings
and fly.
the pulse
the beat
carries healing
to reach
to teach
and to preach.
secrets hidden
secrets forbidden
buried 
under the lies.
The pulse
the beat
given to me
continues the story
carried deep down
in the bowels of 
my secret place.
I feed on it
whoosh
I feel it
whoosh.
faster
Each strings tells a story
a symphonic legacy.
Faster now
the urgency...
Ok
enter.

Abort!

Abort


The bud that threatens to bloom is no more
From the efforts of foes have come its foeticide
no more.
"Abort!" they say
save your life.
Do not go down with the ship!

In terror it cries at the fear
of not seeing the light
of not inhaling the toxic fumes
that slowly kills and maims.

The fault is too wide 
to cross or hide
the unpardonable sin.
So we heap sin on sin to over us in
so no one can see we sinned. 

A foolish thought
born of a desperate heart
to right a wrong 
by doing more wrong.

I turned to Time
to ask Him to be kind
But a piece of my soul
He said was, "mine".

I must decide whether to walk the blank
or swim in my own filth.
to take a leap
accept defeat
and abort abort abort!

It’s Your Time

It's Your Time

Don't wait
Time won't allow you to stop
and look around.
wait for you to get ready.
Now is all you have.
Don't wait
to be led by those better
than yourself.
There is no one who can give you the promises
no Moses to take you to the edge
of the Promise Land.
Don't wait
for the perfect thing
yet unnamed
unseen
unreal.
Touch what is there until
it turns from water into wine,
bread from stone.

Don't stop,
to smell those roses 
they are rotting
grab them from the stem in full bloom
take them with you - 
then crush the to keep them
alive forever like a memory that never dies.
Stretch those once useless limbs
until they grab and squeeze
the juice you need to sustain you.
Do 
be fearless and true, 
in all that you do,
to slay your Goliaths.

I want to Be MORE Imperfect

I found myself reflecting on some wild expectations I previously had. I never said and would never admit it, but all my life I have worked hard at being perfect. Based on circumstances beyond my control and because of those circumstances being beyond my control, I have tried to do the right thing, to be what others said I was. However, the more I try the harder I fell and failed. I trying to be perfect I have taken countless Ls.

So, I have decided not to try anymore. I won’t try to eat the right thing all the time, because when I do I crave more of the things I try to avoid and that is maddening. I wont try to meet those deadlines, because something always happens to push them back. I won’t try to say the right things all the time, because I have grown to be the hypocrites I do not like. I won’t try to be nice when no one asked or expects me to be nice. I won’t try to be always right, because I now know the hard way, “The way of a fool is right in his own eyes, but a wise man listens to advice” Proverbs 12:15. I won’t try to measure up to the next person, because I do not want to be anyone except myself, I think I am good enough for me.

Don’t worry, I do not intend to dream less and work towards what I am suppose to have but, I do not need to do it all and be all and have it all. I am content do display my many, many imperfections like a battle scare well earned. I have earned each failure because each reminded me that I am alive and that I am strong. In trying to be perfect I almost went mad, but I did not. Now I know I will bend but wont break or shatter and I take heart knowing this as I move ahead.

We Made It!!

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Who knew victory would be so bitter sweet. Yes, so many of us for many reasons, especially because of Ms Rona were wondering if we would – many did not. Let’s have a moment of silent for all those who did not make it. Let’s have a moment for those who still cling to making it in 2021…

What a year it has been. Now we need to take some time to reflect on what we have learned about ourselves and about others. Let us turn those disappoints into lessons that will make us stronger and smarter moving forward. This year there were so many deaths to contend with, I truly came face to face with my mortality – I lost people I loved and at one point felt I would not make it – it was intense.

But here I am, still. And still, here you are. Let us just take the time to breathe deeply because we made it. Despite our differences, despite our challenges we are together in knowing that we made it for a reason. We are still here because we still have more to do and more to give. There is no room in this new year to doubt our place here, nor doubt that this time is our time. We must accept that the past has no hold on us, except that we must learn from it and the future is yet to come. All we have is each moment that we are here and we need to make it count. Make it count it just for ourselves but for others who will fall into our path.

All we have to truly carry into the new year is hope. When we say happy new year, we say it with the fervent hope that it will be so. Gone is the supercilious attitudes of last year, that we had a right to happiness, riches and boundless opportunities, because it is a new year. We have been humbled and now know how quickly things can change for the worst, ad keep getting worse.

But, hopefully we also take with us from 2020, a greater sense of confidence in our abilities and our stick-to-itiveness, a stubbornness to grow, thrive and flourish even in the most adverse of conditions. We climbed to the mountain top and we raise our hands in triumph. However, as we look out we see yet another mountain peak that we will have to get to and we have no choice to begin our descent to make our ascent to that new milestone. We don’t know what is to come but we know we that 2020 has given us a few more survival tools to take with us on the next stage of the journey.

Happy 2021, stay blessed and stay safe.

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