There is No Seat

There is No Seat

I stood at the door
looking for the shore
to lay my anchor down.
I see the warmth
directed everywhere,
but there is none for me.
I peek inside
rooted at the threshhold
and see,
all of those chairs
looking back at me.
But there is no seat
avaliable for me,
and like that one tremulous dew drop
I quiver,
cold,
alone.
I turn 
the way I came,looked back
 at this once familar and loved scene.
I cannot stay.
I must find my chair out there.

Love Bites

Love Bites

A mean.
I wasn't ready
yet.
But that did not matter
to you.
It's true what they say - 
well I am not sure what they say -
but your love bites 
left my grasping through blue veins.
I thought lots of pleasure
mixed with a little pain
would be my gain.
But no one said 
you would aim for the vein
and drain
all of me again and again.
I know your're excited
to be finally released
but why tear piece by piece?

Next time, 
I'll be ready
next time I will gain
a pound of your flesh
So you are contained
until you are trained.

i said i love you

i said i love you

i said i love you
but not how strong
right now 
i love you
but not all the day long.

must i lie
pretend to be shy
and give you a teddy
for you to wear on your sleeves? 

i said i love you 
but not that much
to give up and flush
all of my dreams
as small as they seem
to follow your highlight reel.

I said I love you
take it or leave
to make room then
for someone who believes.

Sister, are you okay?

Sister, are you okay?

Sister, are you okay?
We are praying for you,
we did not see you
with your husband today
what happened?
Did he cheat on you?
Or did you leave willingly?
God knows all,
better days to come.

Sister, are you okay?
Today you did not look
so good.
We are use to everything in place
but today there was a strand or two
astray.
This is your testing,
we all must face.

Sister, are you okay?
We just mean well,
let us come to your home
to make sure everything - 
no we are just helping!
Gettng in your business
just a necessary evil.

Sister?
Sister?
Wait, she hang up!

What Not to Say

What Not to Say

It's funnny how you go
intending to show
you much you care.
You trample the fragile grass
of hope,
left in reserve
for a time when hope is scarce.

"Sorry for your loss"
is tossed like a sauce
that stings an empty soul.
A tear forced here,
cracked voice there
that offers no warmth
to those now left in the cold.

"So how did he die?"
A dagger in the heart,
a fresh wound bleeds 
with each uttered breath.
Maybe next time 
you will get the report 
that pays for the salt
you carried for treating the wounds.

"I will talk to you then."
A promisory note
that brings us to the end 
of a most difficult talk.


Did It Leave Me?

Did It Leave Me?

Blue black breath
I stand on this desserted trek
waiting
Wondering,
will it come?
Has it gone?
Will I have another chance if it has?
Aimeless 
back and forth
I go.
Only the black shadows
friend or foe?
I do not know.
I stand
a pawn of Time
lacking vision my only crime.
Have I already been condemned?
Frozen.
will I find a friend
to help me back on track?
I stand rooted, waiting. 
Can you tell me,
if it is gone that way
will it come back?