What is Love? I don't give a damn who you are I'm gonna love you. I don't care where you come from I'm gonna love you. I don't care if you make me uncomfortable I'm still gonna love you. I'm gonna love you when you disappoint me when I can't understand you when I think I cannot find who you are. I'm gonna love you when you don't ask want or feel you need it. I'm gonna love you loud love you proud in the quiet times in the dry seasons in those valleys that have no reason. I'm gonna love you and see you and let you do you. Whether you see me I see you and whether you love me I will love you and nothing nothing can change my love, because you did not ask for it, but you deserve it.
Category: self-care
Even in the Dark
Even in the dark, you can find your way. Even in the dark, when you are blinded by grief, pain and fear, you can still find your out.
Often times we cannot see beyond the here and now and that is totally okay. It is not that you or I have limited vision, it is that as we are only human we can only deal with one thing at a time. We can and should deal with what is happening in the present before we begin to live what could happen in the future. Many say you should visualize the future you want and believe it will be so. However, imagine if someone took those words at face value and just woke up each day and tried to visualize the future they want, would that mean they will have it? Some of us, whether we have ever acknowledged it or not believe this without thinking further. Some may not be willing to do what may be required to have that future someday be their reality.
It is the case especially for the untired inexperienced among us. You see, some of us learn the hard way that visualization on its own is not enough. Some of us come upon obstacles in our path that derail us too long. We become blinded by disillusionment and never recover our sight. Some do not know how to snatch a positive mindset from all the trials they face – because they were never prepared to face some of those challenges. They were not willing to fight tooth and nail, to push through those times that were so discouraging. Some gave up too easily and surrendered too much to the lie of “it is what it is”. We have been conditioned to see some of the darkest times in our lives as the sign that would determine the rest of our lives – a sad state of affairs really.
Instead, many of us need to have a new thought. No, we probably should not always accept that “it is what it is”. However, we need to to remind ourselves that even in the dark, there is always a light within us that can guide us out of those seemingly endlessly damp and cold tunnels. There is life given to us and we can use it to push back the cold to experience the warm rays of sunlight waiting on the other side. We are strong enough, to lift those heavy burdens and tilt them over into the precipice, so we can continue on our way to that future we have already been blessed to some day experience.
The Sickness Deep Within
The Sickness Deep Within I am dying. It's not a virus that threatens not a disease incurable but I have had this sickness for a very long time and will carry it for eternity. I must remain in the dark as the light slowly fades because I cannot bear the looks of disappointment nor stand in judgement to be condemned and stoned by all. I must lay here alone and cold starved of compassion denied understanding because this world does not love to hear the truth within. Instead I have been made to pretend to deny what I have done to hide my mistakes for the sake of sensibilities. I am dying but before I do have mercy on me shackled by approval I was not free. It was not my intention to let this secret kill me.
Smile Garden
Smile Garden Smile because everything will be okay. Smile because you made it today. Smile and store them in your treasure chest and take them out to chase away the pains tomorrow. Smile and watch your brain do a happy dance. Smile forget about your fears and embrace the chance to sing and dance for as long as you can. Smile now and do it really, really prettily for you see this is when you beauty shines. Smile because you made it on the other side. Smile don't forget to make it really wide wide enough to catch the stormy clouds that hang just outside your reach be the vision make your smile the Elysian and watch your smile blossom and create a perfect memory garden.
Thrive
Thrive Do you hear my song? do you know I am rooting for you. I see your petals have all fallen off no leaves to cover your nakedness even the green has forsaken you. I breathe warmth on you in you and through you I want you to live. do not bow your head, raise it up! breathe- see I am doing it with you. I feel you tremble but do not be afraid. Your roots are too deep they cannot be removed. see I will water you but you must want to live! I must see your brown turn to green yellow, red and purple. I must see you spread and take flight. I must see you lifted high way above the deep blue skies. Your must perfume my world brighten my rainy days. but my only prayer for you - you must thrive.
Waiting Behind Walls
Hear me out for a minute. Sometimes we may feel we are being strong, resilient even defiant when we dig in our heels and refused to be moved. This calls to mind the African American spiritual song, “I Shall not be moved”, I shall not, I shall not be moved Just like a tree planted by the water I shall not be moved… I am sure it is meant to call to mind the strength of the individual to remain firm in the face of overwhelming obstacles. And while traditionally, it carries a positive message, let’s consider it another way.
Sometimes we have to move. Sometimes we have to uproot ourselves out of that water that has become infested by all manner of pollutants that threaten our true selves, our very lives. We cannot be rooted in places that offer no nourishment, that shrink us instead of making us tall, that compromise our potential instead of making us flourish. At that point we must move or be removed.
But, I wanted to go to the idea of walls. I have always found solace in hiding behind walls, after all aren’t they there to protect us? So we build walls to keep bad things out and the good in. Overtime we develop a false sense of security, we believe we are untouchable because we have the wall there to keep us safe. We start forgetting how bad things can get and we sometimes forget to recognize those things that are used to deceive us, we forget the evil and what it looks like and the fact that it can take many shapes and sizes. However, walls are never impenetrable, they can be breached. And when they are, will we be ready for the consequences?
How far can we go to have the lives we want for ourselves, in a space with innumerable pockets of potential disasters? This is not an easy question to answer and certainly cannot be answered by thinking or philosophizing about it, but by doing, taking action. However, there is one thing that I see as sure, sitting behind those walls and waiting things out makes us sitting ducks for those pockets that can explode and destroy those walls and breach those imaginary bubbles.
Invisible One
Invisible One Watch and see they are coming this way. Ready? 1,2,3 "Hey you don't see mi here am I invisible?" How can they know me if they don't see me? everyday it is the same thing. people try to sit on me walk through me step over me and never look at me. see to be seen I must be loud buy my own crown and put it over my crown. I must pretend to be something that will be seen just not me. Ah mean don't feel sorry - I don't. But I know I must find my hole make it bold make there my home.
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