The Sickness Deep Within

The Sickness Deep Within


I am dying.
It's not a virus
that threatens
not a disease
incurable
but I have had this sickness
for a very long time
and will carry it for eternity.
I must remain in the dark
as the light slowly fades
because I cannot bear
the looks of disappointment
nor stand in judgement
to be condemned and stoned by all.
I must lay here alone and cold
starved of compassion
denied understanding
because this world does not love to hear the truth
within.
Instead I have been made to pretend
to deny what I have done
to hide my mistakes
for the sake of sensibilities.

I am dying
but before I do 
have mercy on me
shackled by approval I was not free.
It was not my intention
to let this secret kill me.