The One Sitting on the Throne

Power can be very deceptive. This coming from someone who has never had much and who does not desire much, beyond a measure of control over my own destiny and how my story unfold and is told.

However, I have observed that any measure of privilege and lead one to be consumed with a sense of self importance. As I hear an old woman tell her young caregiver to look wood to roast breadfruit, instead of using the coal she bought, I see the evidence clearly. Her position as employer and her caregiver as employee, has given her the right, in her mind, to see her as less than. The man who has the handle is seemingly in a better position than the man who holds the blade. Therefore, the one at the lower end must be careful not to antagonise the other or else his very life may be short lived.

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Imagine the one who has the power to determine, who eats and goes hungry. Who lives and who dies. What great power that persons has! And yet his or her power is never complete, it is always finite.

For all the millions, billions and even trillions, one thing the rich cannot buy is more time. At some point the fabulously rich, those who have some measure of wealth must face their own mortality. They will get sick, some will make it to old age, but, all will eventually die. When we think of all those great kingdoms around the world, the one thing they all have in common, is that at some point they only remain great in the memories of those who chose to remember and tell their story.

“the twenty-four elders fall down before him who sits on the throne and worship him who lives for ever and ever.They lay their crowns before the throne…” – Revelation 4:10

Even if you have a throne that you sit on here on earth, one day you will have to give it up. You will have to throw in the towel, give up the crown. If the natural order of life does not lead to this inevitability then someone else will come to claim or take it. Quickly the ones jostling at the top on their tippy toe point realise, maybe too late, that they were never meant to remain there forever, but only for a while. Because we all came and saw the world it is reasonable to assume that nothing here really belongs to us. The crown we wear, if we do, will have to be laid down as we acknowledge that any power we have is limited. If the elders around the throne of The Most High were compelled to lay down their crown in acknowledging a greater power than their own, what does that say about each of us!

For some it may be very hard to consider those who he looks down on from his lofty spot. He may shake his head in pity and the poor misbegotten souls. Never thinking that they can very topple from that envied spot. Some never consider that they are are very short distance away from where they started or sinking even lower. The horror at the indignity of once again being ordinary is a fate worse than death for many. However, it is a fate that we all begin with and all must end with.

Some will say that this pandemic has been the great equalizer, but it has also revealed that many cling to their throne to the detriment of many,and many cling to a crown of Pyrite.

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Day and Night

A dash of dreams...
A tupse of twenty-twenty vision.

let's turn the page!
Do things
important things.

But the latch felt and we were
trapped.
whispers everywhere
whispers to ripples
ripples to waves
waves become liquid mountain
crashing down.

We ran into secret places
invisible
unknown.
All dreams, attacked, 
grasping desperately for air.

It wasn't fair,
it didn't care, 
man woman and child
all had a fair share.

We raged, we cried, we begged - 
Mercy!
It did not hear, Misery kept us company.

The carnival had ended and so masks were removed.
Many Medusas were unveiled that day,
No Oracles to spin fantasies.
Helpless to the onslaught we cowered in dark places.

Out of despair many turned to Him.
Will He hear their cry?
Will He care?
Will He...? 

Those Whom I love…

19 Those whom I love I rebuke and discipline. So be earnest and repent. 20 Here I am! I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in and eat with that person, and they with me. Revelation 3: 19-20

Today I am feeling a little reflective, because there are many more things that I am yet to learn. There are many things that happen that can teach us so much more than we think we know. When I was younger and read the book of Revelation, I thought it really likely for me to get the fire and the brimstone (I was a difficult child, always being beaten it seems for doing the wrong things). I have always found reading the book of Revelation a bit depressing. However, I now find comfort in Revelation 3: 19-20. Even in the disappointments and difficulties we face, God still loves us; even when we do not love The Almighty the way we should. When we need help, there is no need to call one any source except our Creator as He says, “Here I am at the door knocking!” All we need to do is to invite Him in and let Him do the rest. The truth of God’s goodness is only in the spiritual and divine and not in the physical world, which requires us to make ample space in our lives to receive the truth of God.

The book of Revelation is not just about retribution but is the evidence of the hope that we have in Christ. It is a reflection of God’s love, a love that prompts the Holy Spirit to challenge us to see beyond the worldly trappings to our real purpose here on earth.

Nothing goes to waste on the journey of life. Both good and bad experiences shape your mind and heart for what is to come. Leon Brown

Maybe if we stopped thinking in negative terms, then the things we see as bad or hard would not consume our lives and become true. If we take the time to process each experience, then maybe they could be teachable moments that ensure growth and not stagnation. Every experience matters, no matter how hard it was to live through, they happen because they are suppose to but they do not have to happen again and again, so we can call it deja-vu. A lesson never disappears unless you have learned it. Consider that the next time you question, “why me”. Learning lessons mean accepting them when they happen and it may mean forgiving yourself for not being smart enough in the first place to know or do better.

You cannot travel back in time to fix your mistakes, but you can learn from them and forgive yourself for not knowing better. Leon Brown

For me, Revelation is not about the judgement as much as it is about the mercy, about finding the truth and living by it. Finding the truth never happens unless you learn some difficult lessons.It is never enough to accept what was as what is and it is never justified to stay within the confines of the box. God does not require perfection but a heart that is willing to learn the lessons that matter most, based on His divine will.

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Turn fear into faith

Turn fear into faith and do not look back
No need to collect the broken pieces 
into sackcloth.
Turn your broken dreams
 into beautiful mosaics
By the help of the Almighty. 
Look for the truth in the humble places.
Test your strength against the chains they would use to bind you.
Chains that would deny you the freedom to be you.
Chains that would be keep you enslaved 
dependent
weak,
malleable 
to their agenda.
Take hold of the yourself.
Do not be fooled by mass hysteria.
Take control of yourself so you can be restored.

Whisper a prayer,

Wait for what is to come
claim your right to receive it
and deny fear.
Go and know that your needs are already met
ready to be collected.
You offer little and get much.
That is the nature of mercy
the measure of Grace.
Hold fast to the promise,
it is the rope that will guide.

Hold fast to One Truth,
the truth that will sustain you.

Phillipians 4:19:
And
My God
Will meet all your needs
According to the riches of His Glory...

For I am With You Always…

Today I want to talk about trust, faith and fear. It is Easter Sunday, which represents for many christians the commemoration of the resurrection of Christ. It is the pivotal aspect to the good news of Christ. With this celebration,. there is the renewal of hope, life and light. However, because we are only human, in times of great tribulation we can forget to focus on the light as the darkness surrounds us. We may know of the hope that we have in Christ, but when we think too much of how we have failed to be true to our faith we get afraid. We wonder if with each new challenge, it is our past that has finally caught up with us.

Does humanity deserve what is happening right now?

We focus so much of our energies on our fears that we become paralysed and either do not act to move forward, or we act too rashly and somehow make things even worse than they were. It is a bit clearer now more than ever, how misguided we can be about matters in this life. I have seen several instances where, in a time of death and great uncertainty , some of us still focus on the things that do not matter – things that never truly mattered and never will.

I have seen persons so consumed by fear that they infect everyone else around them with it, until there is no one to offer comfort and strength.

But this thankfully this is the minority.

There are many more persons who continue to rely on the the promise of Christ, the promise to be with us even as He left the earth to sit on the right hand of His father: teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age... (Matt. 28:20). Once we abide in The Most High, He will abide with us.

Easter isn’t about a date on the calendar nor the rituals that accompany said date – well as far as I am concerned. It is the hope that suffering is temporary and that fear can be conquered. It is to remember that we do not fight our battles alone, but that Christ is always with us, once we act according to his will (Matthew 28).

We see the evidence of God’s willingness to stand by His people, to offer comfort and healing:

10 So do not fear, for I am with you;
    do not be dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you and help you;
    I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
                                           Isaiah 41:10

The message of setting aside our fear, despair and uncertainty, is a message that we need to carry, “like the poor carry hope”. It is a message that mattered then and that matters now. It is the good news that needs to travel through the grapevines, through the tunnels of tiktok and all those social media platforms teeming with everything else. It is the good news that we need to tell ourselves when we are bombarded by the bad news that gives the grisly details of death and suffering.

There is hope in Christ, in His birth, death and resurrection. There is also evidence in both the old and New Testament that we are never alone, once we are willing to allow The Great I am into our lives and once we are willing to relinquish the control we we think we have. It is comforting to know that we are not alone, that we have been placed together to help each other and encourage each other during our difficulties. The Great Commision was not just for the disciples but for all believers. Our strength does not lie in operating in fear but in the Light. We are not slaves to fear, because We have been given a spirit of fearlessness; what we need to do is to activate it.

15 The Spirit you received does not make you slaves, 
so that you live in fear again; rather,
 the Spirit you received brought about
 your adoption to sonship.And by him we cry, “Abba, Father.”
Romans 8:15
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A Different Kind of Palm Sunday

Today I watched the Palm Sunday service from the comfort of my bedroom, kitchen and backyard. When you are at home you find yourself multitasking because there are so many distractions. So there I was making sure I did not miss service, but finding others things to do. However, I started to think back to last year and what Palm Sunday meant then, and what it means today, and you know what, it is different. While I was not always still, the service provided so many meaningful lessons that I can now reflect on. overall, Palm Sunday this year for me is not about miracles, but it is all about surrender.

I was reminded through the gospel reading the example of Jesus, who in facing the greatest trial of His life surrendered to God with his prayer:

“O My Father, if it is possible, let this cup pass from Me; nevertheless, not as I will, but as You will.” St Matthew 26:39

I was reminded here that being vulnerable before God is not a weakness but a requirement.

It is a requirement in having an honest and meaningful relationship with God. I also realise that Jesus’ prayer showed his willingness to surrender all that he felt; from it I could hear His, doubt, distress and powerlessness at what was about to happen to Him. Yet he did not waver in his commitment to completing His purpose here on earth, in completing His mission:

“O My Father, if this cup cannot pass away from Me unless I drink it, Your will be done”. (St Matthew 26: 42)

There are times in our lives when we say we look for our purpose, but sometimes it is not that we don’t know our purpose but we refuse to accept that that is the will of God because it is not our will. We hope that if we pray and hope hard enough another purpose will materialise, one that is more pleasing to us and not to God. We want to serve God but on our terms; it is as Jesus noted of his own disciples, a situation where the spirit is willing but the flesh is weak (Matt. 26:41).

Another excellent lesson from today’s sermon,was the importance for us to stand and wait, and allow the will of God to be done. Now more than ever, we are required to slow down or completely come to a stand still. Many of us resist and for different reasons. However, while Jesus knew that Judas was there to betray Him, He did not remove Himself from the scene, He waited for the things that had to come to pass, and many of us do not have the patience nor the time to wait. We have become so accustomed to the mindset of. “getting things done now” that we have forgotten that we can do nothing without the Almighty, our source of life and light.

Finally, the service offered the reminder that suffering is a part of this life whether we want to experience it or not. We often, especially as Christians, think that if we pray hard enough for something and exhibit false humility God will be merciful and grant our request. We feel that as children of God our suffering will be minor or not last very long and ultimately we will be redeemed in the way we envision. However, by now, we should know this is not the case. While we can only see our lives frame by frame God sees the entire picture. There is always a greater good than what we experience and know. We operate based on our weakened flesh and therefore instead of being discouraged by suffering what we need to do is remain steadfast and stand fast in faith. (Rev. Fr. Howard Walters).

Finally, I was reminded that our faith is a choice. We have decided to take up the cross and that is our choice. Jesus decided to submit to the will of God and that was His choice. Instead of looking at what we are now faced with and surrender to fear, let us surrender to the hope that we have in Christ Jesus. Let us not be afraid to belief that God is at the helm of our lives and all that we experience is according to His perfect will for our lives. We may suffer and experience great pain, but all that we experience, is only for a time. Though the world as we know it may change, God is still in control, and truly, in our weakness is the strength of the Almighty.

8 Concerning this thing I pleaded with the Lord three times that it might depart from me. 9 And He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. 10 Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in needs, in persecutions, in distresses, for Christ’s sake. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

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If we must Die…

I was speaking to my students recently about Caribbean poets and Claude McKay came up. Unsurprisingly, they were only vaguely familiar with his name. In some instances I have seen him listed as an American poet, an error which sought to erase his humble Jamaican origins. Born September 15, 1889, in Sunny Ville Clarendon, he eventually made his way across America and Europe, gathering worlds of experiences to himself. He was best known for his invaluable contribution to the Harlem Renaissance in New York and was considered a literary voice for social justice. More than any of his masterfully crafted poems, the one that resonates with me today, is the poem, “If We Must Die”.

A poem that never fails to shake me out of a defeated mindset.

“Though far outnumbered let us show us brave”

“Pressed to the wall, dying, but fighting back

Though this Shakespearean sonnet was written as a rebellion against oppression and its institutions, it is also for me, a call to continue going, to continuing fighting no matter what, even if the victory seems impossible. It bolsters my courage against disappointments, fear and the unseen enemies that attack when you least expect or want them. But most of all, it reminds me that there is no room to surrender or to doubt my strength which comes from the Almighty…

If we must die, let it not be like hogs
Hunted and penned in an inglorious spot,
While round us bark the mad and hungry dogs,
Making their mock at our accursèd lot.
If we must die, O let us nobly die,
So that our precious blood may not be shed
In vain; then even the monsters we defy
Shall be constrained to honor us though dead!
O kinsmen! we must meet the common foe!
Though far outnumbered let us show us brave,
And for their thousand blows deal one death-blow!
What though before us lies the open grave?
Like men we’ll face the murderous, cowardly pack,
Pressed to the wall, dying, but fighting back!

IF WE MUST DIE – CLAUDE MCKAY
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