live unto the Lord die unto the Lord do everything unto the Lord... for what else is there? you name? it will die with you. your fame? become infamous in a world of grey lies and half truth overshadowing all the good you do. money? hahahaha paper burnt lost stolen thrity pieces of silver scattered in the dust below a hanged man's noose. Sit here my child right at my feet greet me stop being busy pleasing the weak. Come here sit down here is the man with the true crown.
Category: Encountering New Experiences
That Feeling…
I am not myself. My heart beats empty echoing like a shell abandoned by the way I sit with myself. My heart soundlessly beats missed steps Time unsynchronised. I lay. I sleep. Do I want to wake? A touch crumbles. Leaving scars in place of resolve. Can I find missing pieces, scattered, to the four seasons? I am not myself. How to get me back?
Don’t Give Up
Just a message to all those who feel like giving up.
You have found yourself, it seems, in the same place time and time again. Now, you wonder what’s the point in sticking around and why not just give up. It may seem tempting to you, but after all your efforts have been tainted by indiscipline you don’t know how else to try. You have planned, written a list, journaled written a book even, trying to stay on the narrow lane, and you still keep falling off. Do not stop and sit in your distress. Do not quit. Maybe it used to be easier but you have lost so much practice, that you have forgotten how to quickly rise again. Don’t give up on the version of yourself that comes after the pain. The moment is fleeting, though you may say differently now. You will get past this even though right now, things seem insane. God is speaking to you, in the reassurance of others, listen. He stands with you when little pockets of miracles happen each day. The miracle of waking up, getting a kind word or a few things you knew you needed but could not source for yourself. There are miracles all around you, you don’t need to part a red sea, wake from the dead, or drink wine that was once water. Think of all the times you thought you wouldn’t make it and you did. When you felt like you were fighting an army of invisible enemies but still won. Think about all the mistakes you made but still got the right results. You were made to last. Not for a season but for all seasons. God made you that way.
Don’t give up you won’t fail. When the devil sees that you won’t give up no matter how many times you fall, he will leave you alone.
Here’s a True Love Letter…
43 But now, this is what the Lord says—
he who created you, Jacob,
he who formed you, Israel:
“Do not fear, for I have redeemed you;
I have summoned you by name; you are mine.
2 When you pass through the waters,
I will be with you;
and when you pass through the rivers,
they will not sweep over you.
When you walk through the fire,
you will not be burned;
the flames will not set you ablaze.
3 For I am the Lord your God,
the Holy One of Israel, your Savior;
I give Egypt for your ransom,
Cush[a] and Seba in your stead.
4 Since you are precious and honoured in my sight,
and because I love you,
I will give people in exchange for you,
nations in exchange for your life.
5 Do not be afraid, for I am with you;
I will bring your children from the east
and gather you from the west.
6 I will say to the north, ‘Give them up!’
and to the south, ‘Do not hold them back.’
Bring my sons from afar
and my daughters from the ends of the earth—
7 everyone who is called by my name,
whom I created for my glory,
whom I formed and made.”
8 Lead out those who have eyes but are blind,
who have ears but are deaf.
9 All the nations gather together
and the peoples assemble.
Which of their gods foretold this
and proclaimed to us the former things?
Let them bring in their witnesses to prove they were right,
so that others may hear and say, “It is true.”
10 “You are my witnesses,” declares the Lord,
“and my servant whom I have chosen,
so that you may know and believe me
and understand that I am he.
Before me no god was formed,
nor will there be one after me.
11 I, even I, am the Lord,
and apart from me there is no savior.
12 I have revealed and saved and proclaimed—
I, and not some foreign god among you.
You are my witnesses,” declares the Lord, “that I am God.
13 Yes, and from ancient days I am he.
No one can deliver out of my hand.
When I act, who can reverse it?”
14 This is what the Lord says—
your Redeemer, the Holy One of Israel:
“For your sake, I will send to Babylon
and bring down as fugitives all the Babylonians,[b]
in the ships in which they took pride.
15 I am the Lord, your Holy One,
Israel’s Creator, your King.”
16 This is what the Lord says—
he who made a way through the sea,
a path through the mighty waters,
17 who drew out the chariots and horses,
the army and reinforcements together,
and they lay there, never to rise again,
extinguished, snuffed out like a wick:
18 “Forget the former things;
do not dwell on the past.
19 See, I am doing a new thing!
Now it springs up; do you not perceive it?
I am making a way in the wilderness
and streams in the wasteland.
20 The wild animals honour me,
the jackals and the owls,
because I provide water in the wilderness
and streams in the wasteland,
to give drink to my people, my chosen,
21 the people I formed for myself
that they may proclaim my praise…
Now the rest is up to you.
Letter from a People Pleaser
Listen up everyone. I don't give a damn! what you think of me how I dress what I say where I go what I do with my life. It's not your place to tell me anything. If I marry when I marry who I marry if I have a child when I have one or how I have one What I do don't concern you. Don't share your opinion I don't need it. I don't give a fluck if you're down on your luck and you are looking in my pocket for a buck. Let me be me let me do me just let me be!
Emotional Regulation
Does this chart seem familiar in some way? If you have been here before or, you are now here, not to worry, you are not alone. Emotional regulation according to Ross A Thompson
emotional regulation consists of the extrinsic and intrinsic processes responsible for onitoring, evaluating, and modifyinh emotional reactions, especially their intensive and temporal features, to accomplish one’s goals
Thompson, “Emotional Regulation: A Theme in Search of Definition
The situation does not have to be work-related. It can concern any and all aspects of our lives and how we are able or unable to regulate our emotions can determine the quality of life we have.
Emotional Regulation Explained
So this will take some work and we cannot do it on our own, so we need help. But we can start and see where things lead. It’s not easy but it’s necessary….
Watch your words, Sis, they can kill…
She was tired. The results did not match the effort. “Why was this so hard? O God I just want to die! Come, Lord, I can’t bother no more.” She puts down her sword, puts down her armour and just sits there. She thinks she’s ready. She thinks she’s ready to die, because why should she live if she has nothing to give…
You are too harsh by far. You are too harsh to yourself and each word you utter cuts deep and leaves a wound. Soon, you will start bleeding until all the life is drained from your body. Be kind to yourself, just as you are kind to somebody else. Your words are causing those wounds that will be hard to repair.
There are times when we feel so much despair we just don’t care. We look at our situation and think of death before dishonour and so we say, death. We claim death to our dreams, relationships and our very being. We lose sight of our purpose and speak so much nonsense and we start to believe them. We start to nurture them, water them protect them; we start to worship them. Then we feel despair hounding us and we get tired. Yes, we get tired and we think those thoughts, over and over again until, our light is diminished. We lock ourselves off and forget our powerful friend. We forget we have a friend in Jesus. We sink into a hole so dark and so deep that we are consumed by it.
However, to give in is when despair truly begins. This is where the dishonour becomes a real thing. Giving reign to the dark disqualifies our purpose, and dishonours a gift given in love, blood and unimaginable pain. Yes, Sticks and stones can break bones but words and be the death of us. Little by little those words of failure of surrender begin to chip away at our tenacity, our resolve and our birthright. So be careful, be very careful of the things you tell yourself. Because what others say to you, doesn’t really matter, until you begin to repeat them to yourself. Only then do they become true. So, be careful that the words you think of, the words you use with yourself are words, God, has commissioned over your life, not those carelessly tossed around by a desperate mind.
“Let me give you a preview of what your words can do and tell me what you think…”
“Oh God! I shall not die but live and declare the works of the Lord, forgive me!”
Pull back when you are closest to the edge, reach out and seek help. But don’t allow yourself to be enticed by the tragedy of your story. It’s better to seek the repairer of the breach, that’s what we should seek than to blindly orchestrate and actively participate in our defeat. Words are powerful use the with wisdom, love and kindness.
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