Touch

Touch

Do you feel me
and now do you know me?
I tingle
brought awake - 
no!
Do not withdraw
you are my dopamine,
you are mine for all time
and the horrors
of the wasteland will never encroach here.
Like sleeping beauty
you have stirred me awake
and now I need you.
Do not forsake me.
Please feel me
and see me
and know that I am me.
I can only come alive
when you touch me.

Emotions.

Being emotional is often associated with being weak mentally and impulsive in many instances. However, emotions are necessary in order to be intuned with reality. Or, at least that is what I belief.

Is it really as simple as changing your thoughts in order to change your feelings and emotion? There are some people who are identified as being highly emotional, which on sight implies that they act oftens based on how they feel and may not cope well with reality. However, as someone who would like to lump myself in the category of highly emotional people, I think we tend to see the truth way ahead of most and therefore are more in tuned with reality.

I can often tell when someone has a negative reaction to me even if they appear to be so kind and so nice to me and ten times out of ten I am proven right. It does help that they cannot keep up the charade for long and long before the big reveal, there a evident cracks in the nice guy facade. It seems that we can tell when someone is not as emotionally connected, lacks compassion and seems detached from everything happening around them.

It is true that people who are highly emotional do get tired and anxious in extremely tense situations, especially when the situation is allowed to continue indefinitely. However, we welcome and need change and when it does not happen we get anxious, we want to break down the barriers that refuse us from experiencing it.

The trick is to understand why we feel the way we feel in a certain situation and be patient with others and ourselves. We experience emotions whether we like it i not, whether we care to admit it or not, but we can take the time to find a means by which we can channel these emotions to our good. It really is important that we embrace and are honest about how we feel moment by moment. I have learned the hard way how dangerous and anti-productive it can be to ignore how you feel and in instances try to suppress them. I have felt the sharp teeth of regret because I have reacted in the wrong way at the wrong time because of years of suppressed emotion. While there are persons who may feel uncomfort at your display, it is better that they experience honest emotion instead of those tainted by time that had not healed all wounds.

I am slowly learning how to be honest about how and why I feel the way I do and I see that there is no better cure for a peace of mind than this.