I had a conversation with myself just the other day…
“Is it worth it? Is it really worth it to be here with everyone else? Imagine living on your own Island, what peace! There would be no one to compare yourself to. You could do what you wanted to do, and there would be no disapproving parents, friend, family to make you feel bad about your choices. Imagine, there would be no need for you to every do anything you don’t want to do! wouldn’t that be heavenly?”
“But what would you do?” “Wouldn’t it be lonely?”
“Nope and no”. Why would I be lonely? I know there would be no suffering, no one to miss, death would not invade my world. All the garbage and filth in this world would not be a part of my island. If at first I missed anyone it would leave me, we tend to forget after awhile and any pain at leaving then behind would fade. But oh! What peace I would find on my island. Far, far away from it all!”
“I don’t think you would be happy, being all alone I think you would get bored on that island. Think about it, have you every lived on your own?”
“Well, I hate living in this world but I don’t want to die, so the best solution is to go somewhere where I will be happy”.
“You don’t want to die, why? Would you miss anything here, could that be why?”
” I wish I could take, all the beauty here, all the things I love and take somewhere else. I have suffered so much here and I know more is to come, maybe it’s better if I could run”.
“You don’t know what troubles may be on your island. earth did not begin the way it is today”
” But why do I have to face the uncertainties of a world that can bring such sadness, such loss, pain and permanency?”
“But here you are not alone. Here there are persons who love you. Persons who want you to find peace. Here is the opportunity to rely on and learn from those around you. Right here where you are is the help that you need, if only you would look, if only you would see.”
And so I thought about that conversation, these questions kept repeating. Could it be true? Was there a possibility to find peace here and not only on my island, to be content with the closeness of others? Could peace really exist with me and you and you and me?