Inside Outside

They see - 
but they don't see,
they know - 
but they don't know
the blow
brings snow,
pain - 
golden rain,
beyind haunted trails.
I failed to see the enemy,
it was inside of me
It said:
"you shall fail
you see
you cannot help it
it's in your nature
a true disease."
Blasphemy!
I see you,
my shadow 
following me.
I stretched and reached
now it confined me.
I popped 
jumped up
into sargasso sea
waddled I wiggled
into a land o'dreams
sword fight
fire flies
rescued me.
Now I see 
it was all possibilities
no spectator
a participator.