This is It

This is It.

Hold me
I don't feel so good.
I think I am going to explode
I need to go
let go of this pressure building up inside
I see double. triple - 
I can't see at all
I need
to sit
to stand
to take a break 
to get going
I am a mess!
I can't think clearly
I think too much
what will I do
what will I do?
I wish it would start
I hope it doesn't 
I'm not ready!
Oh God!
What will I do?
okay okay
I can do this
I must do this
I am going 
now now now!

- that's it
it's over?